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An Abbreviated Life - A Memoir

Ariel Leve

A beautiful, startling, and candid memoir about growing up without boundaries, in which Ariel Leve recalls with candor and sensitivity the turbulent time she endured as the only child of an unstable poet for a mother and a beloved but largely absent father, and explores the consequences of a psychologically harrowing childhood as she seeks refuge from the past and recovers what was lost. Ariel Leve grew up in Manhattan with an eccentric mother she describes as “a poet, an artist, a self-appointed troublemaker and attention seeker.” Leve learned to become her own parent, taking care of herself and her mother’s needs. There would be uncontrolled, impulsive rages followed with denial, disavowed responsibility, and then extreme outpourings of affection. How does a child learn to feel safe in this topsy-turvy world of conditional love? Leve captures the chaos and lasting impact of a child’s life under siege and explores how the coping mechanisms she developed to survive later incapacitated her as an adult. There were material comforts, but no emotional safety, except for summer visits to her father’s home in South East Asia—an escape that was terminated after he attempted to gain custody. Following the death of a loving caretaker, a succession of replacements raised Leve—relationships which resulted in intense attachment and loss. It was not until decades later, when Leve moved to other side of the world, that she could begin to emancipate herself from the past. In a relationship with a man who has children, caring for them yields clarity of what was missing. In telling her haunting story, Leve seeks to understand the effects of chronic psychological maltreatment on a child’s developing brain, and to discover how to build a life for herself that she never dreamed possible: An unabbreviated life.

A beautiful, startling, and candid memoir about growing up without boundaries, in which Ariel Leve recalls with candor and sensitivity the turbulent time she endured as the only child of an unstable poet for a mother and a beloved but largely absent father, and explores the consequences of a psychologically harrowing childhood as she seeks refuge from the past and recovers what was lost. Ariel Leve grew up in Manhattan with an eccentric mother she describes as “a poet, an artist, a self-appointed troublemaker and attention seeker.” Leve learned to become her own parent, taking care of herself and her mother’s needs. There would be uncontrolled, impulsive rages followed with denial, disavowed responsibility, and then extreme outpourings of affection. How does a child learn to feel safe in this topsy-turvy world of conditional love? Leve captures the chaos and lasting impact of a child’s life under siege and explores how the coping mechanisms she developed to survive later incapacitated her as an adult. There were material comforts, but no emotional safety, except for summer visits to her father’s home in South East Asia—an escape that was terminated after he attempted to gain custody. Following the death of a loving caretaker, a succession of replacements raised Leve—relationships which resulted in intense attachment and loss. It was not until decades later, when Leve moved to other side of the world, that she could begin to emancipate herself from the past. In a relationship with a man who has children, caring for them yields clarity of what was missing. In telling her haunting story, Leve seeks to understand the effects of chronic psychological maltreatment on a child’s developing brain, and to discover how to build a life for herself that she never dreamed possible: An unabbreviated life.
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A beautiful, startling, and candid memoir about growing up without boundaries, in which Ariel Leve recalls with candor and sensitivity the turbulent time she endured as the only child of an unstable poet for a mother and a beloved but largely absent father, and explores the consequences of a psychologically harrowing childhood as she seeks refuge from the past and recovers what was lost. Ariel Leve grew up in Manhattan with an eccentric mother she describes as “a poet, an artist, a self-appointed troublemaker and attention seeker.” Leve learned to become her own parent, taking care of herself and her mother’s needs. There would be uncontrolled, impulsive rages followed with denial, disavowed responsibility, and then extreme outpourings of affection. How does a child learn to feel safe in this topsy-turvy world of conditional love? Leve captures the chaos and lasting impact of a child’s life under siege and explores how the coping mechanisms she developed to survive later incapacitated her as an adult. There were material comforts, but no emotional safety, except for summer visits to her father’s home in South East Asia—an escape that was terminated after he attempted to gain custody. Following the death of a loving caretaker, a succession of replacements raised Leve—relationships which resulted in intense attachment and loss. It was not until decades later, when Leve moved to other side of the world, that she could begin to emancipate herself from the past. In a relationship with a man who has children, caring for them yields clarity of what was missing. In telling her haunting story, Leve seeks to understand the effects of chronic psychological maltreatment on a child’s developing brain, and to discover how to build a life for herself that she never dreamed possible: An unabbreviated life.

Language:

English

Narrators:

Martha Plimpton

Length:

6h


Chapters

Introduction
Introduction

00:56


Chapter 1
Chapter 1

01:28


Chapter 2
Chapter 2

02:56


Chapter 3
Chapter 3

02:00


Chapter 4
Chapter 4

06:40


Chapter 5
Chapter 5

02:50


Chapter 6
Chapter 6

06:04


Chapter 7
Chapter 7

04:43


Chapter 8
Chapter 8

07:34


Chapter 9
Chapter 9

02:16


Chapter 10
Chapter 10

09:59


Chapter 11
Chapter 11

01:41


Chapter 12
Chapter 12

14:45


Chapter 13
Chapter 13

18:39


Chapter 14
Chapter 14

17:59


Chapter 15
Chapter 15

12:27


Chapter 16
Chapter 16

04:22


Chapter 17
Chapter 17

06:51


Chapter 18
Chapter 18

03:28


Chapter 19
Chapter 19

09:58


Chapter 20
Chapter 20

07:07


Chapter 21
Chapter 21

15:08


Chapter 22
Chapter 22

12:27


Chapter 23
Chapter 23

05:35


Chapter 24
Chapter 24

03:57


Chapter 25
Chapter 25

07:06


Chapter 26
Chapter 26

04:45


Chapter 27
Chapter 27

07:50


Chapter 28
Chapter 28

04:26


Chapter 29
Chapter 29

07:37


Chapter 30
Chapter 30

02:48


Chapter 31
Chapter 31

13:33


Chapter 32
Chapter 32

04:43


Chapter 33
Chapter 33

04:20


Chapter 34
Chapter 34

03:44


Chapter 35
Chapter 35

05:03


Chapter 36
Chapter 36

10:08


Chapter 37
Chapter 37

04:27


Chapter 38
Chapter 38

04:15


Chapter 39
Chapter 39

02:22


Chapter 40
Chapter 40

16:11


Chapter 41
Chapter 41

07:50


Chapter 42
Chapter 42

07:29


Chapter 43
Chapter 43

18:56


Chapter 44
Chapter 44

03:16


Chapter 45
Chapter 45

02:50


Chapter 46
Chapter 46

10:53


Chapter 47
Chapter 47

02:23


Chapter 48
Chapter 48

04:47


Chapter 49
Chapter 49

05:06


Chapter 50
Chapter 50

07:30


Chapter 51
Chapter 51

03:32


Chapter 52
Chapter 52

01:01