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Scared Selfless - My Journey from Abuse and Madness to Surviving and Thriving

Michelle Stevens, PhD

"A riveting memoir that takes readers on a roller coaster ride from the depths of hell to triumphant success."-Dave Pelzer, author of A Child Called "It" Michelle Stevens has a photo of the exact moment her childhood was stolen from her: She's only eight years old, posing for her mother's boyfriend, Gary Lundquist-an elementary school teacher, neighborhood stalwart, and brutal pedophile. Later that night, Gary locks Michelle in a cage, tortures her repeatedly, and uses her to quench his voracious and deviant sexual whims. Little does she know that this will become her new reality for the next six years. Michelle can also pinpoint the moment she reconstituted the splintered pieces of her life: She's in cap and gown, receiving her PhD in psychology-and the university's award for best dissertation. The distance between these two points is the improbable journey from torture, loss, and mental illness to healing, recovery, and triumph that is Michelle's powerful memoir, Scared Selfless. Michelle suffered from post‐traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, and depression, and made multiple suicide attempts. She also developed multiple personalities. There was "Chelsey," the rebellious teenager; "Viscous," a tween with homicidal rage; and "Sarah," a sweet little girl who brought her teddy bear on a first date. In this harrowing tale, Michelle, who was inspired to help others heal by becoming a psychotherapist, sheds light on the all-too-real threat of child sexual abuse, its subsequent psychological effects, and the best methods for victims to overcome their ordeals and, ultimately, thrive. Scared Selfless is both an examination of the extraordinary feats of the mind that are possible in the face of horrific trauma as well as Michelle's courageous testament to their power.

"A riveting memoir that takes readers on a roller coaster ride from the depths of hell to triumphant success."-Dave Pelzer, author of A Child Called "It" Michelle Stevens has a photo of the exact moment her childhood was stolen from her: She's only eight years old, posing for her mother's boyfriend, Gary Lundquist-an elementary school teacher, neighborhood stalwart, and brutal pedophile. Later that night, Gary locks Michelle in a cage, tortures her repeatedly, and uses her to quench his voracious and deviant sexual whims. Little does she know that this will become her new reality for the next six years. Michelle can also pinpoint the moment she reconstituted the splintered pieces of her life: She's in cap and gown, receiving her PhD in psychology-and the university's award for best dissertation. The distance between these two points is the improbable journey from torture, loss, and mental illness to healing, recovery, and triumph that is Michelle's powerful memoir, Scared Selfless. Michelle suffered from post‐traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, and depression, and made multiple suicide attempts. She also developed multiple personalities. There was "Chelsey," the rebellious teenager; "Viscous," a tween with homicidal rage; and "Sarah," a sweet little girl who brought her teddy bear on a first date. In this harrowing tale, Michelle, who was inspired to help others heal by becoming a psychotherapist, sheds light on the all-too-real threat of child sexual abuse, its subsequent psychological effects, and the best methods for victims to overcome their ordeals and, ultimately, thrive. Scared Selfless is both an examination of the extraordinary feats of the mind that are possible in the face of horrific trauma as well as Michelle's courageous testament to their power.
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"A riveting memoir that takes readers on a roller coaster ride from the depths of hell to triumphant success."-Dave Pelzer, author of A Child Called "It" Michelle Stevens has a photo of the exact moment her childhood was stolen from her: She's only eight years old, posing for her mother's boyfriend, Gary Lundquist-an elementary school teacher, neighborhood stalwart, and brutal pedophile. Later that night, Gary locks Michelle in a cage, tortures her repeatedly, and uses her to quench his voracious and deviant sexual whims. Little does she know that this will become her new reality for the next six years. Michelle can also pinpoint the moment she reconstituted the splintered pieces of her life: She's in cap and gown, receiving her PhD in psychology-and the university's award for best dissertation. The distance between these two points is the improbable journey from torture, loss, and mental illness to healing, recovery, and triumph that is Michelle's powerful memoir, Scared Selfless. Michelle suffered from post‐traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, and depression, and made multiple suicide attempts. She also developed multiple personalities. There was "Chelsey," the rebellious teenager; "Viscous," a tween with homicidal rage; and "Sarah," a sweet little girl who brought her teddy bear on a first date. In this harrowing tale, Michelle, who was inspired to help others heal by becoming a psychotherapist, sheds light on the all-too-real threat of child sexual abuse, its subsequent psychological effects, and the best methods for victims to overcome their ordeals and, ultimately, thrive. Scared Selfless is both an examination of the extraordinary feats of the mind that are possible in the face of horrific trauma as well as Michelle's courageous testament to their power.

Language:

English

Length:

8h 43m


Chapters

Chapter 1
Chapter 1

00:19


Chapter 2
Chapter 2

00:13


Chapter 3
Chapter 3

01:50


Chapter 4
Chapter 4

00:20


Chapter 5
Chapter 5

07:38


Chapter 6
Chapter 6

05:48


Chapter 7
Chapter 7

07:12


Chapter 8
Chapter 8

08:18


Chapter 9
Chapter 9

07:31


Chapter 10
Chapter 10

07:07


Chapter 11
Chapter 11

07:38


Chapter 12
Chapter 12

07:22


Chapter 13
Chapter 13

08:22


Chapter 14
Chapter 14

05:34


Chapter 15
Chapter 15

08:25


Chapter 16
Chapter 16

08:00


Chapter 17
Chapter 17

07:37


Chapter 18
Chapter 18

06:51


Chapter 19
Chapter 19

07:27


Chapter 20
Chapter 20

08:12


Chapter 21
Chapter 21

08:01


Chapter 22
Chapter 22

08:08


Chapter 23
Chapter 23

05:59


Chapter 24
Chapter 24

06:18


Chapter 25
Chapter 25

04:00


Chapter 26
Chapter 26

07:21


Chapter 27
Chapter 27

08:25


Chapter 28
Chapter 28

08:19


Chapter 29
Chapter 29

08:34


Chapter 30
Chapter 30

08:44


Chapter 31
Chapter 31

08:52


Chapter 32
Chapter 32

07:29


Chapter 33
Chapter 33

08:13


Chapter 34
Chapter 34

05:04


Chapter 35
Chapter 35

08:49


Chapter 36
Chapter 36

07:46


Chapter 37
Chapter 37

07:48


Chapter 38
Chapter 38

06:53


Chapter 39
Chapter 39

06:13


Chapter 40
Chapter 40

07:39


Chapter 41
Chapter 41

07:23


Chapter 42
Chapter 42

08:38


Chapter 43
Chapter 43

07:27


Chapter 44
Chapter 44

06:49


Chapter 45
Chapter 45

08:08


Chapter 46
Chapter 46

05:24


Chapter 47
Chapter 47

07:46


Chapter 48
Chapter 48

07:49


Chapter 49
Chapter 49

08:25


Chapter 50
Chapter 50

08:38


Chapter 51
Chapter 51

06:24


Chapter 52
Chapter 52

05:39


Chapter 53
Chapter 53

06:57


Chapter 54
Chapter 54

07:47


Chapter 55
Chapter 55

08:57


Chapter 56
Chapter 56

08:14


Chapter 57
Chapter 57

07:31


Chapter 58
Chapter 58

06:51


Chapter 59
Chapter 59

06:56


Chapter 60
Chapter 60

06:40


Chapter 61
Chapter 61

06:07


Chapter 62
Chapter 62

08:25


Chapter 63
Chapter 63

07:41


Chapter 64
Chapter 64

07:58


Chapter 65
Chapter 65

07:09


Chapter 66
Chapter 66

07:54


Chapter 67
Chapter 67

08:23


Chapter 68
Chapter 68

08:20


Chapter 69
Chapter 69

08:57


Chapter 70
Chapter 70

08:22


Chapter 71
Chapter 71

08:39


Chapter 72
Chapter 72

07:35


Chapter 73
Chapter 73

08:15


Chapter 74
Chapter 74

00:37