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SOS-BONUS: Coming Out Stories

Inspired by an unexpected confession in Galway (Episode 13)... I invite a few of my friends who came out later in life, to come on the show and share their stories. 1. Heather - An only child raised in an extremely Christian home. She marries a man, starts a family and joins a mom’s club, […]


SOS-13: Confession in Galway

Another lady, another kiss, another booze laden adventure awaits in Galway, as I inch closer to an inescapable life reckoning. MUSIC: Prelude No. 6 by Chris Zabriskie is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license ( by Kevin MacLeod is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license (


SOS-12: Ireland-The Beginning of the End

In every lifetime, there comes many a fork in the road, sometimes we see them and sometimes we don't. One of the most pivotal conversations of my life happened on the second level of a double decker bus, crossing the gorgeous landscape of Ireland. Carefree Melody by Twin Musicom is licensed under a Creative Commons […]


SOS-11: Beyond Belief in Barcelona

To share or not to share? That was my struggle while producing this episode. When in question, I always ask myself this: "Would I want to hear this part if it were your story?" But of course! Get ready for the unexpected my friends... Push Me by Twin Musicom is licensed under a Creative Commons […]


SOS-10: Barcelona

The bizarre and unexpected sprout again and again in Barcelona, from naked boobies and hair ripping shockers to skinny bunk beds, sting rays and moving displays of power from straight girls. Barcelona inspires many impromptu pulls of the microphone! Hackbeat by Kevin MacLeod is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license(


SOS-09: Fear and Ferries in Italy

Kathleen’s little, solo mission to find an isolated beach turns into an unexpected hike up a mountain where she discovers an extremely creepy scene...She also reconnects with a friend you may remember from earlier on in her journey. Push Me by Twin Musicom is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license ( Story by […]


SOS-08: Chairway to Heaven

Kathleen finds herself in the mighty Eastern Alps, nearly 3000 feet above sea level as she looks back on some pivotal life choices. Bathed in the Light - Calming by Kevin MacLeod is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license (


SOS-07: Zurich-City of Smiles

Kathleen ditches Paris, has a panic attack at the train station in Zurich, Switzerland and, thanks to another coin toss, she realizes a lifelong dream. She also meets a new friend, who brings a whole new appreciation for blind dates. Thank you Loretta, for sharing not only your experience but for sharing in my dream! […]


SOS-06: Orphan Love

The follow-up to Episode 5. Hear Andrea’s unexpected love story that sprouts on a moonlit bridge in Paris with an unlikely street, chalk artist. Discover where Kathleen decides to go next when she cuts Paris short and hops on the first train out of town… Andrea, Thank you so much for having the courage to share your struggle, your adventure and your fantastic storytelling style! Image credit: Brin Kennedy - Music credits:Tuba Waddle by Audionautix is licensed under a Creative...


SOS-04: The Coin Toss

In this episode, I reflect on my marriage, I discuss what it’s like stepping into the new age world of online dating and I share intimate details of my time with Leanne. Amsterdam was quite a first experience to launch this sabbatical, but I was clearly in a bit of an altered state while I was there (for a variety of reasons!). I could not decide where to go next, but I knew it was time to move on, so I decided to leave it up to the universe and flip a coin to determine my next...


SOS-03: Amsterdam High

Amsterdam, oh Amsterdam.In this episode, I arrive in Amsterdam and like a bolt of lightning, I amstruck with a visceral awakening to the new possibility of life and light beyond depression. I meet a wonderful, beautiful, compassionate woman who understands exactly where I am, relative to my divorce, and... I take you with me on our first "date" as we sip wine on the Lilly Canalat sunset. It may seem like a rapid and sudden shift from wanting to drown in Lake Michigan in Episode 2, to...


SOS-02: Drowning in Chicago

I had only officially booked this sabbatical a couple of weeks before I arrived in Chicago, so when I got there, I wasstill very much reelingfromtheseparation withmy wife a couple of months before. In desperately looking for anything to stop the pain and confusion of the mental space and life place I was in at that point, I went on a sailing adventure with one of my friends. I had no clue what I was getting into there and ended up with some notable bruises and a soothing, albeit temporary,...


SOS-01: The Tunnel

Inthis episode, I share a critical piece of who I am,without which, I'm not sure I would have had the courage to make this show. I also discuss the tragic awakening that lead meto the very edge of this earthly existence, where I found myself asking the question, "Sabbatical or Suicide?" I finally makemy choice,... and I make it mypersonal mission to share the journey. Also in this episode, you will meet my brother Jim.He was my hero when I was a kid, when he would drive me to basketball...


SOS-00: Welcome to Sabbatical or Suicide.

Welcome to Sabbatical or Suicide. After years of asilent struggle with suicidal thoughts and depression, as well as many months of production and personal reflection, I'm finally ready to launch this show. In thisintroduction episode of, "Sabbatical or Suicide," Ibreak my silence and say hello to all of you (HELLO!). Here, I explain how the show came to be and why I am doing it. Music Credit: Deliberate Thought by Kevin MacLeod is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license...