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I am a survivor of violent crime.In April of 1978 my father was murdered in the convenience store my parents owned when I was 10 years old. My podcast explores my grief recovery process and how his death at such an early age has shaped my life.

I am a survivor of violent crime.In April of 1978 my father was murdered in the convenience store my parents owned when I was 10 years old. My podcast explores my grief recovery process and how his death at such an early age has shaped my life.
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I am a survivor of violent crime.In April of 1978 my father was murdered in the convenience store my parents owned when I was 10 years old. My podcast explores my grief recovery process and how his death at such an early age has shaped my life.

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English


Episodes

Episode 95 - My Grief Podverary and A Conversation with my Mom

1/19/2018
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Two years ago I sat down and pressed record for the first time. I had no idea if anyone would listen and where this journey would take me. Many people thought this topic was either too sensitive to discuss or was just too much of a downer. I could not be more pleased to prove the naysayers wrong. I found that many others where going through the same pain that I was and it was then that I thought about giving others a voice on this podcast. It started in Episode 55 with Joshua Black from the...

Duration: 00:30:42


Episode 94 - Gun Contol and Grief

1/10/2018
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I have often been asked how I feel about the subject of gun control. Many people thing that I am anti-gun because my father was murdered by someone with a shotgun. This week I look at what or who really took the life of my father and how we might truly get away fro all the senseless killing that is running rampant in the States. Look for a Youtube channel in the near future and email me (darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com) if you'd like to share your story of loss on the show. Apple...

Duration: 00:12:49


Episode 93 - Grief and My 2018 New Year's Resolution

1/3/2018
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Life has continued to punch me in the gut in the month of December. It didn't help that I sabotaged what was this week supposed to be the interview with my mon by not saving the edited version. I have also had to continuously deal with personal issues in my life. My resolution for 2018 is to simply go where life takes me - for better or worse Just some general housekeeping: Look for a Youtube channel in the near future and email me (darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com) if you'd like to share...

Duration: 00:10:45


Episode 92 - Grief and My Mental Headspace

12/13/2017
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I've been MIA (missing in action) for a few weeks because I needed to take care of a few things back in St. Louis. I didn't have the time it would take to keep up my regular production schedule. One thing that weighed heavily on my mind was the last conversation I had with my grandfather. He didn't want me to leave home and attend school half way across the country. I told him I'd only be gone for school, but he was still adamant that I should stay home. I didn't have an opportunity to...

Duration: 00:23:15


Episode 91 - Processing Lessons vs Getting Answers in Grief

11/29/2017
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No music this week as I'm on the road visiting family for the Thanksgiving holiday (which is why there was no episode last week). I had the opportunity to pick up some new podcasting gear on Black Friday in the form of two new microphones that' i'm going to use to interview my mother this week and I'm testing them out today. Anyway, that got me thinking about mu technology background and how I used to teach Microsoft certification classes. Some students only wanted to know what information...

Duration: 00:20:10


Episode 90 - Finding Forgiveness In Grief

11/15/2017
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After scrolling through the Facebook group and attending a podcasting conference. I was forced to reflect on the aspect of forgiving someone who has committed the most horrible act imaginable - killing my father. I was filled with every emotion possible for the first few years after my father's death... hate, anger, revenge, etc. But at some point I realized that I had to do one thing to begin letting go of these feelings that I had. I had to fogive that person that killed my father. How...

Duration: 00:18:04


Episode 88 - The Mathematics of Grief

11/8/2017
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Math was always my favorite subject in school. My first memories of my father are of him teaching me to count money. I quickly learned my multiplication tables this way as well. The subject has come easy for me ever since, I took some form of math every year in school - including college! Why it is not a grief trigger for me I don't know. There are some things, however, that that remind me of my grief recovery process: repeating decimals and pi just to name a few. I have to focus on a...

Duration: 00:15:57


Episode 88 - The Miscommunication of Grief

11/1/2017
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This past week, one of the members in the Facebook group communicated that people still questions why she is still grieving a loss from 10 years ago. I personally believe that certain societal ques tend to lead people to think that we are at certain points in our grief recovery process and we are ok in our grief. This week's call to action: Let me know how you are going to incorporate your loved one's into your Thanksgiving celebration. Will you have a special meal, go to a certain...

Duration: 00:15:33


Episode 87 - Grief and the Bigger Picture

10/25/2017
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After being cut off by a car on my way home, I asked myself why didn't the driver notice that there was no one behind me. was he focused just on my car and didn't notice that in the "big picture" it would have been safer to wait for me to pass because there was no one behind me. When it comes to grief the big picture involves opening our hearts, to other to let them into our world... the help facilitate the healing process. Apple PodcastsRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of...

Duration: 00:19:03


Episode 86- Are Grief and Using the Bathroom Really Related?

10/18/2017
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As I sat in my office last week trying to meed a deadline, I had to yes the bathroom. The only problem was I needed to complete a though before I went and I didn;d know if I could hold it long enough! This got me to thinking... could using bathroom actually be related to my grief recovery process? Believe it or not, it is! Apple PodcastsRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of following: email - darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web...

Duration: 00:14:49


Episode 85 - Grief and the Things Our Loved Ones Say or Do

10/11/2017
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As I think about the heirlooms left to my by my loved ones, I started reflecting on the final time that I saw them or spent a considerable amount of time with them. This week I ask two questions: I'm curious to know your answer... send me an email at darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com iTunesRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of following: email - darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.com voice message...

Duration: 00:15:58


Episode 84 - Heirlooms and Their Effect on Grief

9/27/2017
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I recently wore a watch that was left to me by my uncle. Wearing it made me feel closer to him... and it really made me happy. Here I reflect on things left to me be relatives. Do you have any heirlooms left to you, and if so do you incorporate them in any way in your daily life? iTunesRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of following: email - darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.com voice message...

Duration: 00:16:56


Episode 83 - Grief and Running

9/20/2017
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I am often asked how long did it take me to "get over" my father's death. The short answer is I haven't and I won't... at least not completely. In this episode I use my time in the army and the activity of running to explain why. Now if I could just beat this cold!! iTunesRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of following: email - darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.com voice message -...

Duration: 00:10:59


Episode 82 - Grief and the B-Sides

9/13/2017
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While editing some images last wekk, I was listeing the CD "The B-Sides" by Prince. To clarify, before there was streaming music services and befor CDs music was sold on vinyl as a 2 sided disc. When you purchase a hit single, it was on the A-side of the record and the B-side was usually the instrumental of that song or some song that was deemed unworthy to be included on the album or some song not related to the project at all. Some B-side songs became more famous than the song that was...

Duration: 00:22:22


Episode 81 - Seniors, Baby Steps, and Grief

9/6/2017
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I had the opportunity to help move some furniture at an assisted living facility for senior citizens. There I met a gentleman who was trying to deal the challenge of just trying to walk a short distance. What I leaned from him in the span of 10 minutes is something I should have learned a long time ago - sometimes small victories make all the difference in the world iTunesRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of following: email - darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com twitter -...

Duration: 00:13:39


Episode 80 - Turning 50 and Looking Back on Grief

8/30/2017
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As I turn 50 this week I have a lot to be thankful for... I think it's important to look back and figure out how to make adjustments to get through adversity. As I often do I take a look back at where I used to be emotionally and how I ended up here. iTunesRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of following: email - darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.com voice message -...

Duration: 00:15:13


Episode 79 - Setting Expectation Around Grief

8/25/2017
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This week I want to focus on a few pieces of feedback I received from listeners. One person wanted to know why I don't talk about spousal loss and another is dealing with people questioning being vocal about a loss that has happened a few years ago. iTunesRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of following: email - darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http:// www.dealingwithmygrief.com voice message -...

Duration: 00:21:57


Episode 78 - A Lake, Some Fish and Grief

8/16/2017
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I took a week away from the microphone to take a vacation and go fishing on Lake Ontario. While sitting on the lake I realized that being on the lake and trying to catch some salmon was a lot like life and my grief recovery process. Picture of the big king salmon I caught: http://www.dealingwithmygrief.com/podcast/episode-78 Please share this podcast with anyone who is suffering through some type of loss... I just want them to know they are not alone. iTunesRSSStitcheriHeart Radio...

Duration: 00:19:46


Episode 77 - Neo, The Matrix, and Grief

8/2/2017
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While looking at Youtube, I came across some clips of the Matrix. This got me thinking about how Neo's journey to find the truth about his existence mirrored somewhat my grief recovery process. Please share this podcast with anyone who is suffering through some type of loss... I just want them to know they are not alone. iTunesRSSStitcheriHeart Radio Contact me using any of following: email - darwyn@dealingwithmygrief.com twitter - http://www.twitter.com/dealwithgrief web - http://...

Duration: 00:22:25


Episode 76 - Check, Mate, and Grief... The Rest of the Story

7/26/2017
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In Episode 15, Games and Grief, I talked about how I found chess and it was a vehicle for keeping me out of trouble and hor really helping me center myself. However, I did not go into any great detail about how it really impacted my grief recovery process. This week I reflect on the focus, patience, an the ability to re-evaluate the issues affecting my life and more importantlly my grief recovery process has taught me. Please share this podcast with anyone who is suffering through...

Duration: 00:26:11

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