Looking at something well known. And seeing that it's not just what it appears to be. NYC is not just the actual city where I go to work every day. It's also a myriad of fictions and fantasies and memories all set in the same scenery.
I'm working with a voice coach to help me improve this podcast. And it surfaced a long held belief about myself: that I have often been misunderstood. However, I could suddenly see that this was perhaps not an accurate description.
I have been reflecting on this distinction between our essence or true self, and then the character or role that we have in a given situation. I have been really afraid to step into a role. I thought it would automatically become miserable. So I have been showing up like an actor who refuses to play his part and ruins the scene for everyone else. But perhaps there is a way.
I used to believe that being authentic meant showing up as I am, always. But as I step into a leadership role, I begin to understand that there are many situations where this attitude won't work, because it means I'm often inconsistent. One day my performance is A+ and the next day it's D-. I don't think it's inauthentic to strive for more consistency, so long as it's not forced.
I'm taking a course on basic leadership skills. The stuff that an arrogant side of me would like to pretend that I know really well. But I don't! Sure, I have taught leadership classes. But I haven't learned all of it. And this class helped me a lot by giving me some very precise and critical feedback about what I do really poorly. Like REALLY poorly... and I know it's true. Not because the test says it. The test just points to it. I know it's true because I can remember those situations....
I am still learning how to work in a full time job, and it's not as easy as I thought it would be. I also have to face my own arrogance, in my attitude of expecting others to bend to my terms. I thought I was being flexible and accommodating but I can see now, that I actually wasn't. I wasn't honest with myself.
This is a special story about a man named Richard who gave me some of the most valuable advice on a flight from Vancouver to Australia, and what we can learn from this about offering feedback.
If you want to see a video of how to hold a pen, have a look here.
I really try to see my own laziness as a productive force for focus and impact. As a smart strategy. Yet, on a day where I feel lazy, I am still ashamed of it and feel that I should be doing more. Help me understand what's going on. Have you experienced this?
I often ask myself "what if this was the last day of my life?" what might I do differently? I use it mostly as a retrospective question at the end of the day. Was this day worth it? Sometimes it wasn't, but mostly it was.
During the recording of yesterday's episode, two uniformed police officers came over to talk to me. They hadn't heard about podcasting and were a bit curious about what I was doing. We sorted it out, but it reminded me of how problematic it can be when we assume that safety is about looking out for anomalies.
Have you ever tried to rush your way through a crowded train station? Feeling that everyone is getting in your way? What happens when you find the pace of everyone else? When we move in group. With the group.
It's easy to think of crowd funding in a way where the crowd is the means to an end, which is the funding. However, it's a missed opportunity if we only think this way. If we focus less on the funding, we can use the same mechanism to create social accountability for projects that don't actually require much funding, but where our tendencies to procrastinate can delay the project eternally. In this episode I tell the story of Bryony Cole and how she raised money to launch her podcast The...