Closeted: My Life as a Gay BYU Student
Jonathan Alder
My plan was simple. Serve a full-time mission. Graduate from BYU. Get married. Stick it out till death.
That’s not what happened.
I began school at BYU, hoping to strengthen my faith while I searched for love. That's when I met both Claire and...
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United States
Description:
My plan was simple. Serve a full-time mission. Graduate from BYU. Get married. Stick it out till death. That’s not what happened. I began school at BYU, hoping to strengthen my faith while I searched for love. That's when I met both Claire and Easton. Claire was the girlfriend who offered a chance at eternal marriage but at the cost of my faith. Easton was the boy who promised a fresh perspective on life but at the risk to my schooling. I knew who I wanted, and who I was supposed to want. Despite fearing I was gay, a faithful life was my only goal. But Bishop Stoll loomed over me with the power to remove me from BYU, making suicide an ever-more attractive escape. I had embarked on an honest search for answers, but the fallout of my actions threatened to take away much more than my education. Duration - 11h 3m. Author - Jonathan Alder. Narrator - Jonathan Alder. Published Date - Sunday, 22 January 2023. Copyright - © 2022 Jonathan Alder ©.
Language:
English
Opening Credits
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Disclaimer
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prologue
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childhood
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writing
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returned missionary
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part 1
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barefoot social
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ncmo
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coming out
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insta-straight
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no homo
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kind of maybe okay
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one option for love
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wholesome family fun
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all one
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mom
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the plot sickens
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an ending
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part 2
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new lifestyle, who dis?
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firsts
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so, this is what it's like
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oh yeah, reality
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people are scary
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trying to be close
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turkey trot
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second only to murder
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one does not simply bottom unprepared
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avoidance
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mas christ, please
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part 3
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so, where were we
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confessions of a deranged homosexual
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the looming misstep
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discipline
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roadblocks
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trying to be nice
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poems of lost love
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#realTalk
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how a glitter wrapped time bomb trips
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part 4
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faith
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blasphemous temple tour
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midnight milkshakes
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ecclesiastical endorsement
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someone else's ex
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nilo
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abuse
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the point of essay
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coping
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feelings are dumb
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part 5
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shit, damn, fuck
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all the fuss
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conduct unbecoming
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what was it for?
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cannot be here
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grades
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growth
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not so fast
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a goodbye
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all i wanted
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sushi
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About the author
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Thank you
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Notes
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Ending Credits
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