The Chaos of my Mind
Ellen Northcott
Please let me go. So many times I've wanted everyone to just let me go. But they didn't and I'm here. The fight to get here was impossibly hard, but so worth it. This is the story of how I got here, the story of the worst year of my life which changed...
Location:
United States
Description:
Please let me go. So many times I've wanted everyone to just let me go. But they didn't and I'm here. The fight to get here was impossibly hard, but so worth it. This is the story of how I got here, the story of the worst year of my life which changed everything. I have bipolar disorder which takes me from the extremes of depression to the giddy heights of mania and for awhile there I didn't think I was going to live to tell my story. So let me take you with me on the journey. It's dark at times, an all encompassing darkness, and yet there is also lightness and hope. Duration - 3h 41m. Author - Ellen Northcott. Narrator - Ellen Northcott. Published Date - Wednesday, 18 January 2023. Copyright - © 2021 Ellen Northcott ©.
Language:
English
Opening Credits
Duration:00:00:11
Trigger warning
Duration:00:00:09
Prologue
Duration:00:04:03
Are you depressed
Duration:00:09:31
Love is blind
Duration:00:11:53
Keeping it in the family
Duration:00:07:00
Who am i
Duration:00:05:06
The doctor
Duration:00:16:33
Unbearable
Duration:00:06:28
Dismissed
Duration:00:04:56
Friends for life
Duration:00:06:35
Grief as relief
Duration:00:04:24
Making plans
Duration:00:09:26
Searching for joy
Duration:00:02:12
Beyond repair
Duration:00:03:16
Farewell
Duration:00:01:39
Suicide attempt
Duration:00:03:52
How not to tell someone you tried to kill yourself version 1
Duration:00:01:54
Faking normal
Duration:00:01:49
How not to tell someone you tried to kill yourself version 2
Duration:00:00:31
Hospital will cure it
Duration:00:08:12
Seeking understanding
Duration:00:01:38
The other side
Duration:00:06:33
Temporary joy
Duration:00:02:30
Knife's edge
Duration:00:05:10
It will hurt
Duration:00:07:22
The police
Duration:00:04:08
Part 4
Duration:00:00:06
Limbo
Duration:00:08:32
Can i skip this bit
Duration:00:05:59
How not to tell someone you tried to kill yourself version 3
Duration:00:01:23
How not to tell someone you tried to kill yourself version 4
Duration:00:01:03
The power of words
Duration:00:01:50
Inspiration
Duration:00:01:51
Stumble
Duration:00:01:49
How not to tell someone you tried to kill yourself version 5
Duration:00:01:29
How not to tell someone you tried to kill yourself version 6
Duration:00:00:58
A little niggle
Duration:00:09:36
The secret
Duration:00:09:14
Fighting calm
Duration:00:04:50
Aftereffects
Duration:00:04:20
Doubt
Duration:00:08:15
Trying for honesty
Duration:00:10:25
Just jump
Duration:00:09:42
How to tell someone you tried to kill yourself
Duration:00:01:32
Epilogue
Duration:00:00:55
Ending Credits
Duration:00:00:16