First Responder Wellness Podcast with Conrad Weaver

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help. Click here to take the Leadership Assessment: http://firstresponderwellness.co/assessment Episode 121: You're Only as Sick as Your Secrets - Matt Bloesch Retirement is supposed to feel like relief. For Matt Bloesch, it does—but not because he simply “made it to the finish line.” After 26 years in the San Francisco Bay Area and retiring at captain, Matt describes what most first responders rarely say out loud: the job doesn’t just change what you’ve seen—it changes who you are at home, what you believe about the world, and how safe your family feels when you walk through the door. In this conversation with Conrad Weaver, Matt traces the slow drift: bitterness, a shorter fuse, drinking that looked “controlled”… until a phone call reopened an old wound—his father, a San Francisco police officer, accidentally shot and killed by his partner when Matt was 13. That moment cracked the façade and pushed him into real help—where he learned the line that still guides his recovery: you’re only as sick as your secrets. Matt unpacks what actually works: culturally competent clinicians, peer support that’s funded like it matters, and tools like EMDR that helped him get unstuck. The takeaway is simple and hard: secrecy compounds trauma; connection interrupts it—and it’s never “too small” to deserve help. ABOUT MATT BLOESCH Matt Bloesch is a change agent in the first responder wellness world. He worked as a cop for 26 years, happily retiring into a life of helping others and bringing hope. Matt went through his struggles with alcohol and post-traumatic stress while on the job, but was able to recover with the help of other cops who were brave enough to tell their stories. He continued working and had a wildly successful career, with a lot of that time spent on his department’s peer team. He is also the son of a police officer who died in the line of duty. Matt now uses those experiences to help police and fire departments build wellness teams, and he volunteers as a youth mentor for Concerns of Police Survivors, an organization dedicated to rebuilding the shattered lives of surviving family members and coworkers of police officers killed in the line of duty. He is married with two adult children and lives in Northern California. +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help. Click here to take the Leadership Assessment: http://firstresponderwellness.co/assessment 120 - You Don't Have to be Falling Apart to Need Healing - Kemmi Sadler In this episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, Conrad sits down with Kemmi Saddler, a former local law enforcement officer who went from dispatch to patrol—and then into a 20-year career with the Diplomatic Security Service, protecting people and places most of us will never see. Her story turns on a hinge: her last day in local policing was September 10, 2001—then, hours later, 9/11 reshaped everything. From Kuwait to Iraq, she describes the slow, invisible accumulation of stress: the “duck and cover” alarms you stop reacting to, the hypervigilance that becomes normal, and the body keeping score in ways you don’t immediately recognize (TMJ, clenched teeth, numbing, alcohol as relief). What makes this conversation land is the honesty about what happens after the career—when the identity fades and the grief, guilt, and unresolved moments finally speak up. Kemmi shares how a podcast mention of ayahuasca sparked a two-year healing journey, not as a miracle cure, but as a door that required courage, surrender, and real integration work. The takeaway is simple and heavy: you don’t have to be “falling apart” to need healing. If silence feels impossible, that might be the point. ABOUT KEMMI SADLER Kemmi Sadler is a retired U.S. Diplomat and Supervisory Special Agent with the U.S. Department of State’s Diplomatic Security Service. Over a 26-year career as a sworn law enforcement officer and federal agent, she served in high-threat assignments across Iraq, Afghanistan, Uganda, Mexico, and El Salvador, where she received multiple Superior Honor Awards for leadership and crisis response. She began her law enforcement career as a police officer in St. Augustine, Florida. In April, Kemmi will walk 780 kms along the Camino de Santiago with her dog, Nona, in a pilgrimage called Nona’s Way, continuing her commitment to service beyond the badge while raising awareness surrounding the need for mental health and trauma recovery in the first responder community. Kemmi is also the author of From the Badge to the Vine, a reflective memoir exploring moral injury, identity, and the long work of healing after a life shaped by service. Drawing from her lived experience, the book examines what it takes to carry insight into everyday life once the badge is turned in. klsadler.com Nona’s Way Campaign nonasway.com / INSTAGRAM: @Nonas_Way_ +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help. The Moment We Arrive On Scene, We Become a Part of Their Story - Lt. Sarah Shendy Some people wear the uniform and slowly disappear inside it—hardened, exhausted, running on fumes. Sarah Shendy is the opposite. Nearly 18 years into law enforcement, she still talks about the job with the kind of awe most people lose after year one. And in this conversation, she explains why. Sarah’s story starts with an unexpected invitation from a professor at Kent State University—and turns into a career built on compassion, discipline, and an almost stubborn refusal to become numb. She calls it what it is: an addiction to trauma and chaos. But instead of letting that addiction hollow her out, she’s learned to counter it with grounding routines, self-leadership, and the daily choice to show up with steady energy—because when an officer arrives on scene, they don’t just respond to a call… they become part of someone’s story. Together, Conrad and Sarah unpack what healthy policing actually looks like: weekly one-on-ones, leaders who build family-level connection, hiring for character, and real mental-health support—licensed clinicians on staff, debriefs after critical incidents, and even therapy dogs. This episode is a blueprint for any department that wants to recruit well, retain well, and protect its people without losing its soul. ABOUT LT. SHENDY Sarah Shendy is a law-enforcement leader and trainer with nearly 18 years of experience. As a lieutenant overseeing training and professional standards, she’s passionate about building healthy agency culture, developing disciplined leaders, and helping officers stay grounded, connected, and human on the job. https://www.kent.edu/magazine/force-good +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help. EPISODE 118: Bulletproof: Staying Human on the Job with Dan Willis What happens to a good heart after years of walking into the worst moments of other people’s lives? In this episode, Conrad Weaver sits down with retired Captain Dan Willis, a 30-year veteran of the La Mesa Police Department (San Diego area), to talk about the quiet transformation that happens in first responder work—often long before anyone calls it “burnout.” Dan describes becoming “emotionally dead inside” just a few years into the job: shorter sentences, less connection at home, more isolation, and a growing numbness that felt like survival… until it became a warning sign. Then the conversation turns. Dan shares the moment that changed his trajectory—studying emotional survival and wellness at the FBI National Academy—and the ideas that became his book Bulletproof Spirit. He reframes post-traumatic stress not as a life sentence, but as an injury that can heal, especially when leaders stop treating wellness like a program and start treating it like a philosophy. The biggest takeaway is surprisingly simple: the “little” acts of service aren’t little at all. They can protect the spirit, restore purpose, and help first responders come home as themselves again. ABOUT DAN WILLIS Dan Willis is a retired police captain who served 30 years with the La Mesa Police Department in the San Diego area. He now trains and speaks on first responder wellness, resilience, peer support, and emotional survival, and is the author of Bulletproof Spirit. Web site: www.firstresponderwellness.com +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help. I Built My Recovery Like an Investigation - with Craig Semple Craig Semple served 25 years as a detective in the New South Wales, Australia Police Force—homicides, drug squads, outlaw motorcycle gangs, the kind of work that runs on adrenaline and silence. But behind the scenes, PTSD and burnout were stacking up: sleepless nights, heavy drinking, and a culture that treated suffering like weakness. After being medically retired, Craig entered a dark three-year spiral that culminated in a suicide attempt—then made a decision that changed everything: he built a recovery plan the way he used to run investigations. In this episode, Craig and Conrad unpack what first responders miss most—identity loss, the “helper who won’t ask for help,” the family as the canary in the coal mine, and the everyday practices that keep you well enough to finish strong. ABOUT CRAIG SEMPLE Craig Semple was a career Detective within the NSW Police Force for 25 years. Much of Craig’s career was invested in `high risk’ law enforcement including drug investigation, the investigation of outlaw motorcycle gangs and homicides. The environment within which Craig led professional people for much of his career was one that exposed employees to high levels of stress, high workloads, occupational burnout, depression, anxiety and post-traumatic stress disorder. As a leader he developed a clear and practical understanding of workplace mental health and its relevance to workplace health and safety, occupational health and safety legislation, productivity, personal wellbeing and resilience. Craig’s retirement from the Police Force was as a result of his own personal battle with workplace Psychological Injury. From that `lived experience’ he has developed a rare personal insight into the causes, symptoms, treatment, recovery strategies and the impact of mental illness in the workplace. CRAIG'S BOOKS: The Cop Who Fell to Earth Getting Back Up Again +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help. You Can't Heal What Stays Locked in the Dark - Dr. Cherylynn Lee In this powerful episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, host Conrad Weaver sits down with police psychologist Dr. Cherylynn Lee to explore what really happens when trauma goes unspoken inside law enforcement, fire, EMS, and dispatch. Dr. Lee works inside a California sheriff’s office, deploying to SWAT callouts, supporting officer-involved shootings, and overseeing peer support—while also treating first responders in private practice. In this conversation, she explains why avoidance is one of the most dangerous and misunderstood responses to trauma, and why healing only begins when people are able to tell the full story of what they’ve lived through. Together, Conrad and Dr. Lee unpack the growing debate around embedded clinicians, the importance of trust and cultural competence, and why dispatchers must be included in critical-incident debriefs. They also discuss how first responders get trapped in a cycle of self-blame and moral injury—and how reframing the story can change everything. This episode is a candid, deeply human look at why so many in public safety suffer in silence, and what it takes to finally bring what’s been buried into the light. If you’ve ever struggled with something you couldn’t put into words, this conversation offers both clarity and hope. ABOUT DR. CHERYLYNN LEE Dr. Cherylynn Lee is a police psychologist specializing in law enforcement wellness, critical incident response, and trauma care for first responders. She works full-time inside a California sheriff’s office in an operational leadership role while also running a private practice serving first responders exclusively. She teaches and publishes widely, including work with Lexipol/Police1 and training support for the FBI. +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Register for the First Responder Leadership Mastermind here: https://firstresponderwellness.co/masterclass/ Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC Copyright ©2026 First Responder Wellness Solutions, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Need help? Check out these resources: www.firstresponderwellness.co/resources or Dial 988 for immediate help. What happens when the very skills that keep an officer alive on the street start quietly dismantling the rest of their life? In this episode, Conrad Weaver sits down with Dr. Kevin Gilmartin—one of the pioneering voices in police psychology—to unpack the hidden physiology of the job: hypervigilance, distrust, adrenaline, cortisol, and the “biological roller coaster” that first responders ride every day. Gilmartin traces the evolution of wellness in public safety—from the early days of operational psychology to the modern shift toward peer support as the true trust-bridge into a resistant culture. But the conversation doesn’t stay theoretical. It gets painfully practical: why officers gain weight even without “donuts,” how chronic stress pushes insulin resistance and heart disease, why many departments still treat wellness as optional, and what changes when leadership stops asking for permission and starts building wellness into the job itself. Gilmartin argues that the goal isn’t just surviving the career—it’s earning a retirement you can actually live. If you lead, serve, or love someone in public safety, this episode will reframe wellness as leadership responsibility—and as a life-or-death commitment to what happens after the shift ends. ABOUT KEVIN GILMARTIN Dr. Kevin Gilmartin is a veteran police psychologist whose career spans the evolution of modern public safety wellness. Mentored early by one of the field’s pioneers, he went on to serve agencies across all 50 states and internationally, bringing a rare combination of operational credibility and deep clinical insight. Over decades, he has consulted with departments of every size—from major metropolitan agencies with robust wellness infrastructure to smaller organizations still battling stigma and outdated beliefs. Gilmartin’s signature contribution is translating the lived reality of the job into understandable biology: hypervigilance, distrust as officer-safety training, cortisol and glucose cycling, and why off-duty disengagement becomes a slow-moving threat to families, health, and identity. He is also a vocal advocate for peer-driven wellness models and leadership practices that make health unavoidable—because the goal is not simply making it to retirement, but actually being well enough to enjoy it. +++++ ABOUT FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS SOLUTIONS First Responder Wellness Solutions (FRWS) is on a mission to transform the health and culture of leadership within first responder agencies. We believe that healthy agencies begin with healthy leaders. Our integrated suite of services is designed to meet leaders where they are and elevate them through practical, scalable tools that build resilience, confidence, and clarity. Our five core offerings: Leadership Development Pathway – A system combining live training, mastermind groups, and peer coaching for continuous leadership growth. Individual & Team Coaching – Confidential coaching solutions that address unique agency challenges and elevate team performance. Digital Wellness Toolkit – On-demand, self-paced resources, including training modules and leadership tools accessible agency-wide. National Leadership Summit – A flagship annual event that recharges, equips, and connects leaders from across the country. FRWS Media Platform – A global reach platform featuring the First Responder Wellness Podcast and future publications, delivering ongoing insights and inspiration. Through this clear, connected approach, FRWS helps create stronger leaders, healthier agencies, and more resilient communities. FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Register for the First Responder Leadership Mastermind here: https://firstresponderwellness.co/masterclass/ Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram:...

This special year-end episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast counts down the Top 10 Most Downloaded Episodes of the Year—the conversations that resonated most with first responders, leaders, and their families. These episodes tackle the issues that matter most right now: trauma and the brain, leadership culture, physical health, sleep and suicide prevention, spiritual wholeness, organizational accountability, and the human cost of silence. Featuring highlights from Don Brucker, Cinnamon & Erin, Virginia Dixon, David Rhodes, Kimberly Miller, Tony Godwin, Samantha Sonnett, Reagan Falk, Dave Grossman, and Neil Gang, this episode reflects what this community is asking for—and what leaders must respond to. It’s a moment to reflect, reset, and look ahead as new episodes return in January. +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Register for the First Responder Leadership Mastermind here: https://firstresponderwellness.co/masterclass/ Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Podcast Episode Summary & Show Notes Episode Title: A Christmas Message for First Responders Podcast: First Responder Wellness Podcast Air Date: December 24, 2025 Duration: ~7 minutes Host: Conrad Weaver 🎧 Episode Summary: In this special Christmas Eve episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, we pause to honor and thank the brave men and women who continue to serve their communities during the holiday season. Whether you're on shift or home with loved ones, this heartfelt message is dedicated to you. Host Conrad Weaver reflects on the sacrifices first responders make—especially during times when most are gathered with family. This short but meaningful episode is a reminder that your service is seen, your wellness matters, and you are deeply appreciated. 📝 Show Notes: What You'll Hear in This Episode: A sincere thank you to all first responders working through the holidays Recognition of the emotional and physical toll of the job A reminder about the importance of prioritizing wellness and mental health Encouragement to rest, recharge, and lean on your support systems A message of hope, appreciation, and holiday wishes 🎄 This Episode Is For: Police officers, firefighters, paramedics, dispatchers, nurses, corrections officers, and all emergency personnel First responder families who support their loved ones behind the scenes Anyone in the service community needing a moment of gratitude and encouragement this holiday +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Register for the First Responder Leadership Mastermind here: https://firstresponderwellness.co/masterclass/ Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Need help? Find a resource here: https://firstresponderwellness.co/resources/ Register for the First Responder Leadership Mastermind here: https://firstresponderwellness.co/masterclass/ From Addiction to Purpose - Rich Cheatham's Journey Through Shame and Redemption. In this powerful episode, retired fire captain Rick Cheatham opens up about a hidden crisis in the fire service—addiction, shame, and the mental health struggles no one talks about. Rick shares his personal battle with pornography addiction, rooted in childhood pain and magnified by the trauma of the job. With brutal honesty, he describes how his double life nearly destroyed his marriage, and how healing came only when he chose radical honesty and mentorship over silence and shame. This conversation is vital for every first responder, leader, and husband struggling to hold it all together. If you’ve ever wondered how to rebuild trust, find peace, and transform your pain into purpose—this is the episode you need to hear. ABOUT RICK CHEATHAM Rick Cheatham served the city of Anaheim for 25 years as a firefighter and fire captain, retiring in 2020. Beneath the uniform, however, Rick silently battled a devastating addiction rooted in childhood trauma and the accumulated emotional toll of service. After nearly losing his marriage, Rick embarked on a years-long journey of healing—through coaching, mentorship, radical honesty, and spiritual transformation. Now living in Nashville, Rick dedicates his life to helping firefighter husbands overcome their own battles with addiction and shame, guiding them toward restoration, trust, and purpose. His mission is clear: to break the silence, heal the pain, and help men become the husbands and fathers they were meant to be. https://rickcheatham.com/ +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Register for the First Responder Leadership Mastermind here: https://firstresponderwellness.co/masterclass/ Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Register for the Wellness Leadership Masterclass here: https://firstresponderwellness.co/masterclass/ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST EPISODE #111 When the Helper Breaks: The Untold Trauma Inside Corrections In this profoundly moving conversation, former corrections sergeant and mental health advocate Syndi Treece shares the emotional truth of working inside America’s prisons—where trauma is constant, connection is complicated, and silence can destroy lives. Syndi opens up about losing nine colleagues in six months, becoming numb from years of suppressing her own pain, and ultimately rebuilding herself through breathwork, vulnerability, and honest community. Now serving as President of the Los Angeles chapter of Promise to Live, Syndi helps first responders and veterans find hope through connection and compassion. This episode is essential for anyone working in public safety, leadership, mental health, or who has ever felt the pressure of being “the strong one.” About Syndi Syndi Trezise is a former corrections sergeant, mental health professional, and U.S. military veteran who now leads the Los Angeles chapter of Promise to Live, a national movement dedicated to suicide prevention and mental health awareness. She teaches first responders, veterans, and communities how to speak openly about struggle and choose life. Promise to Live — https://promise2live.org +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

How the Ontario Provincial Police Supports Their People: How Ontario Built One of the Most Comprehensive First Responder Wellness Systems in North America Guest: Rob Jamieson, Retired OPP Sergeant & Former President, Ontario Provincial Police Association Host: Conrad Weaver Episode Overview This powerful and far-reaching conversation with retired Ontario Provincial Police Sergeant and former OPP Association President Rob Jamieson dives into the creation of one of the most comprehensive first-responder mental-health programs in North America. Across his 30-year policing career, Jamieson witnessed firsthand the cost of untreated trauma, the painful impact of stigma, and the devastating consequences of suicide within the OPP. Rob shares the pivotal turning points—from multiple member suicides, to his own diagnosis of complex PTSD, to listening to grieving families—that drove him to spearhead the development of Encompas, a 24/7/365 concierge-model wellness program serving thousands of OPP members and their families. He discusses the legislative victories, unlimited psychological benefits, critical crisis interventions, and culture-shifting leadership practices that helped transform mental-health support in Ontario policing. He also highlights the profound financial benefits: the program saves the province millions while keeping members healthier, more connected, and at work. This episode is a roadmap for leaders who want to build a healthier culture, reduce stigma, and create meaningful, structural support for their responders. Rob’s story is both deeply personal and broadly inspiring—a blueprint for what is possible when leaders decide to truly care for their people. About the Guest Rob Jamieson is a retired OPP Sergeant, former President & CEO of the Ontario Provincial Police Association, and a national leader in first-responder mental-health reform. His work helped shape the development of the Encompas Wellness Program—recognized as one of the most integrated and comprehensive mental-health programs for police personnel in Canada. Rob’s Book In Pursuit of Mental Wellness in the First Responder Community Available on Amazon. All proceeds support first responder support organizations. +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

DON'T FORGET TO REGISTER FOR THE FIRST RESPONDER LEADERSHIP MASTERMIND PREVIEW: https://us02web.zoom.us/meeting/register/gIe-71MeQ_62NOI2PMP8Eg#/registration Gratitude is the Secret Sauce - Conrad Weaver In this heartfelt Thanksgiving edition of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, host Conrad Weaver pauses to express deep gratitude to the first responder community and the listeners who support the mission of wellness, healing, and connection. Conrad reads meaningful listener reviews, reflects on the power of community, and emphasizes his role as a connector—bringing leaders, experts, and resources to the microphone to support those carrying the weight of trauma, PTSD, and the daily stresses of public safety work. He encourages listeners to make this week a “Week of Gratitude” by reaching out to friends, peers, and colleagues with simple messages of encouragement—small actions that can save lives and strengthen connection. Conrad speaks openly about the realities of suicide risk in public safety, the importance of checking on one another, and the profound impact of being seen and supported. He wraps the episode with a reminder that no one is alone, especially during the holiday season, and offers a simple challenge: send a message today to someone you are grateful for. Episode Highlights A special Thanksgiving message of gratitude for first responders and the podcast community Listener reviews spotlight: appreciation, connection, and the purpose behind the show Conrad’s mission: serving as a connector between first responders and healing resources The importance of community support in reducing mental health risks A simple weekly practice to help prevent isolation and support peers The power of gratitude and why it changes the way we think Encouragement for anyone struggling during the holidays A call to action: reach out to three people this week +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Here's what Conrad has been thinking about recently, today on the Friday Five... High Road Leaders choose Character over Comfort. Order High Road Leadership here. Register for the First Responder Leadership Mastermind Preview here. Connect with Conrad: 💻 firstresponderwellnesspodcast.com 🎥 Follow on YouTube & TikTok for challenge updates 💬 Share your thoughts in the comments +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Click here to register for the FREE First Responder Leadership Mastermind Preview. How to Relieve Stress in One Minute: A Practical Tool for First Responders with Marie Matteson Guest: Marie Matteson, MS – Former Volunteer EMT, Medical Massage Therapist, Stress & Emotion Regulation Specialist, Author of One Minute Stress Release Episode Description Stress is baked into the job for first responders—but what if you had a simple, practical tool you could use in about a minute, right in the middle of real life? In this episode, Conrad sits down with Marie Matteson, a longtime EMS volunteer turned stress specialist, who has dedicated her work to “helping the helpers.” Marie shares how her experience as an EMT, combined with her background in applied health studies and medical massage, led her to develop the One Minute Stress Release technique—something that has helped medics, officers, dispatchers, and even herself through overwhelming situations. Marie tells powerful stories, including how she supported a police officer who suddenly couldn’t qualify with his weapon due to accumulated stress, and how she personally used this technique to survive the devastating back-to-back suicides of both her parents in 2001. She explains how stress layers in the nervous system, why peer supporters are at high risk for overload, and how a simple hand position and eye movement pattern can help separate the emotional charge from the memory. If you’re a first responder, a peer supporter, or someone who carries the weight of others’ crises, this conversation gives you a tool you can start using immediately. Resources Mentioned Book: One Minute Stress Release by Marie Matteson – available on Amazon Marie’s Website & Contact: 🌐 MarieMatteson.com +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Click here to register for the FREE First Responder Leadership Mastermind Preview. EPISODE 107 Small Deposits, Big Returns: A Realistic Wellness Plan for Agencies - Andy Wilson Director Andy Wilson, Ohio’s Director of Public Safety, joins Conrad Weaver to talk frankly about the human cost of public safety work and what leaders must do to protect the people who protect us. Andy explains how chronic and acute stress shorten careers and lives, why proactive — not just reactive — wellness matters, and how simple, practical programs (fitness, nutrition, hands-on skills, mindset, and relationships) reduce sick time, complaints, and burnout. He also shares concrete training ideas, how to build cultural buy-in from the top and the shift level, and what leaders can do today to start changing their agencies. Episode: First Responder Wellness Podcast — Director Andy Wilson on proactive wellness, training, and leadership Host: Conrad Weaver Guest: Director Andy Wilson, Director of Public Safety, State of Ohio Top takeaways Wellness is life-preserving — physical fitness can literally save lives on duty and post-career health. Trauma is layered: critical incidents, day-to-day exposure, and vicarious trauma all accumulate. Proactive wellness (not just reactive counseling after critical incidents) reduces downstream problems. Training must be regular and accessible — skills are perishable. Start small and scale people in. Leaders lead by example — visible participation wins culture change. First step: listen to your people, identify champions, build a modest, measurable pilot, and communicate outcomes to stakeholders. Resources mentioned Ohio Department of Public Safety (contact via communications office) — Andy invites other leaders to connect. Independence Police Department wellness model (food prep, on-shift time for fitness) PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit. How to share feedback Email Conrad at ptsd911movie@gmail.com or leave a rating/review on Apple Podcasts — it helps us reach more first-responder leaders. +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

In this Friday Five episode, host Conrad Weaver reflects on what it means to live an “above average” life. He shares why he takes on monthly challenges—like daily pushups and Bible reading—not just to test his limits, but to cultivate habits that help him grow personally and professionally. Conrad reminds us that achieving our goals requires more than wishing for them—it takes daily, intentional action. This short but powerful message challenges listeners to examine their own lives: Are you settling for mediocrity, or are you doing the work required to reach your fullest potential? Book Link: https://a.co/d/izeNo5P Key Takeaways: Challenge of the Week: Join Conrad in his 100 Pushups a Day and Bible Reading challenges! Share your progress and encouragement by commenting, “I’m in!” Reflection Question: 👉 Are you settling for mediocrity, or are you willing to do what it takes to become above average? Connect with Conrad: 💻 firstresponderwellnesspodcast.com 🎥 Follow on YouTube & TikTok for challenge updates 💬 Share your thoughts in the comments +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

Title: Do Plant-Based Medicines Work? with Todd Youngblood Guest: Todd Youngblood, Co-Founder of Pneumogladius Host: Conrad Weaver, First Responder Wellness Podcast In this episode, Conrad Weaver sits down with Todd Youngblood, co-founder of Pneuma Gladius, a company dedicated to expanding access to plant-based medicines for mental health treatment. Todd shares the fascinating history and science behind natural psychedelic substances like psilocybin (magic mushrooms), ayahuasca, and mescaline — and how these naturally occurring compounds are showing tremendous promise in treating anxiety, depression, and PTSD. The conversation dives into the stigma and myths surrounding psychedelics, the legal landscape evolving across the U.S., and how structured, intentional use of these substances — under proper guidance — can help individuals gain new perspectives on trauma and create lasting change. Todd also explains how these treatments differ from traditional medications, why they’re not meant for long-term use, and how they promote neuroplasticity and personal growth. Conrad and Todd discuss the parallels between natural wellness approaches — like exercise, breathing, and time in nature — and the growing understanding that healing doesn’t always come from pharmaceuticals alone. ABOUT TODD YOUNGBLOOD Todd Youngblood is a veteran advocate and mental health innovator dedicated to helping veterans and first responders heal from trauma, PTSD, and addiction through alternative therapies. As the founder of Pneuma Gladius, a Public Benefit Corporation, Todd is building an ecosystem that combines structured plant-based medicine, safe healing environments, and data collection to advance research and improve outcomes. His work bridges the gap between traditional mental health care and emerging psychedelic therapies, giving those who serve our communities new pathways toward lasting change. With thousands of hours of experience sitting in men’s circles and guiding others through transformative processes, Todd has seen firsthand the power of connection, ceremony, and structured aftercare. As a trained psilocybin facilitator, he works directly with veterans and first responders, creating safe and supportive environments for healing journeys. His approach is rooted in compassion, community, and accountability—helping individuals move beyond barriers and reclaim their lives. CONNECT WITH TODD http://www.linkedin.com/in/todd-youngblood https://www.linkedin.com/company/pneuma-gladius https://www.pneumagladius.com/ +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ptsd911movie/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ptsd911movie/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClQ8jxjxYqHgFQixBK4Bl0Q Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/first-responder-wellness-podcast/id1535675703 Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dLZOKkO1QYUPzL2ih Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.

105 - You Can't Delegate Wellness - Chief Maggie DeBoard (Ret.) In this episode of the First Responder Wellness Podcast, host Conrad Weaver welcomes retired Chief Maggie (of a local law enforcement agency in Virginia) who spent 38 years in the field—26 in a large agency and 13 leading a mid‑sized one. Now in retirement she heads the Foundation for First Responder Wellness & Resiliency, focusing on ensuring first responders have the resources they need. The conversation explores how wellness in the first responder world has evolved—and how much further it still needs to go. Maggie outlines three kinds of leadership responses to wellness: those who ignore it, those who implement programs “just to check a box,” and those who lead by example, participate, and change culture. She explains that culture and leadership matter more than any flashy program or funding line. Maggie recounts implementing a wellness program in her agency that included annual wellness checks, peer support, nap/sleep rooms, and tracking outcomes like peer‑contacts and sick leave. In that agency sick leave dropped 16 % the first year, and peer contacts doubled—signs of trust and early success in changing culture. She emphasizes that wellness isn’t a “bright spotlight” issue—it’s private, personal, often invisible—and yet leadership must own it, not delegate it. She also highlights the risk of invisible injuries (trauma, brain injury, PTSD) and the need for structural support (legislation, workers’ comp, clinician access), especially for dispatch/telecommunicators and retirees who often get overlooked. Maggie closes with a powerful reminder: “Strong people break too.” She stresses the ongoing work of change, the need for honest culture, and the fact that wellness must be woven into every aspect of agency life—not just a program but a mindset. Key take‐aways: Leadership sets the tone: you can’t outsource the priority of wellness. Culture change takes time (3‑5 years) and it starts with how people treat each other internally. Wellness programs must include peer support + clinical care + accessible processes—not just apps or check‑the‑box solutions. Invisible injuries matter and carry high liability if ignored. Data and measurement matter: outcomes like sick leave, peer contacts, trust indicators signal change. Retirees, dispatchers, telecommunicators often fall through the cracks. Even when systems change, strong leadership keeps them alive beyond one leader’s term. 📝 Show Notes Episode Title: “When Wellness Isn’t a Bright Light: Leadership, Culture & First Responder Care with Retired Chief Maggie” Guest: Retired Chief Maggie – 38 years in law enforcement, past President of Virginia Chiefs of Police, founder of Foundation for First Responder Wellness & Resiliency Host: Conrad Weaver In this episode we cover: Maggie’s background: 26 years in a large agency, 13 years leading a midsize agency + statewide leadership. How conversations around first responder wellness have evolved and the three leadership types she sees. Concrete wellness initiatives: annual wellness checks, peer support team, sleep‑room for night shift, culture contract, tracking metrics. Culture vs. program: why wellness must be embedded in how you treat people, not just what you roll out. Invisible injuries: brain trauma, PTSD, dispatch/telecommunicator stresses, retirees. Data, outcomes, and how to make the case for budget/support: survey results, sick leave drop, peer contacts rise. Advice for leaders: you cannot delegate the ownership of wellness; incremental change is still progress. Foundation for First Responder Wellness & Resiliency – their work, survey efforts, intended support for retirees and dispatchers. Final reminder: “Strong people break too.” Quotes to highlight: “Wellness is not a bright light issue.” “You can’t delegate a priority on wellness — you have to take the lead.” “When your troops don’t trust your leadership, no program will fix that.” “Strong...

🎙️ Friday Five with Conrad Weaver A Short Podcast from the First Responder Wellness PodcastTM Welcome to Friday Five with Conrad Weaver — a quick, five-minute boost to wrap up your week with inspiration, insight, and ideas. Each Friday, I’ll share things that are shaping my world: Projects I’m working on in film, podcasting, and first responder wellness Key lessons from books I’m reading Highlights from events and conferences I’ve attended Personal practices that keep me healthy and grounded And wisdom from leaders, thinkers, and first responders who are making an impact Think of this as a behind-the-scenes look into my journey—delivered in bite-sized episodes that fit right into your Friday routine. Whether you’re a first responder, a leader, or just someone who wants to live well and lead well, Friday Five is here to give you encouragement, practical takeaways, and a reminder that wellness isn’t optional—it’s essential. Episodes drop every Friday. Tune in, take five, and start your weekend with clarity and purpose. +++++ FIRST RESPONDER WELLNESS PODCAST Order the PTSD911 Film and Educational Toolkit here: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ Web site: https://ptsd911movie.com/ Instagram: / ptsd911movie Facebook: / ptsd911movie YouTube: / @firstresponderwellnesspodcast Listen on Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast... Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/2wW72dL... Purchase the PTSD911 film for your public safety agency or organization: https://ptsd911movie.com/toolkit/ The First Responder Wellness Podcast is a production of ConjoStudios, LLC Copyright ©2025 ConjoStudios, LLC - All rights Reserved.