The Twilight Conversations

The first of another three parter, where I explore speaking your truth, telling it like it is etc..& if I'm a little more daring & authentic, living, walking & breathing that truth in our everyday encounters & behaviours..you up for it?!! Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett CLICK HERE FOR THE PLAYLIST FOR THIS EPISODE......... REFERENCES ------------------------------- Shame, Shame, Shame Shirley & Company from Shame, Shame, Shame (1975) ‘Get it right next time Gerry Rafferty from Nightowl (1979) ‘Say’ John Mayer from Continuum (2009) (Something inside) so Strong Labi Siffre from So Strong (1988) ‘I wont back down’ Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers from Full moon fever (1989) ‘The whores hustle & the hustlers whore PJ Harvey from Stories from the city, stories from the sea (2000) ‘Fool yourself’ Little Feat from Dixie Chicken (1973) ‘Tenderness on the block’ Warren Zeavon from Excitable boy (1978) Que Sera Sera (Whatever will be will be) Sly & the family stone from Fresh (Bonus tracks edition) (1973)

I'm in conversation with the charismatic, enigmatic, wildly talented, super intelligent & overall lovable human being ‘Fatboy’. Frontman/singer/songwriter/guitarist with the exciting Ballymun based trip-hop/ jazz/funk/rap/blues fusion, Bricknasty.. We talk Ballymun, childhood, pain, joy, giftedness, addiction, freedom, creativity, art, love & so much more! Podcast Engineer and Editor - Ger Kellett Check out the playlists for this episode - Playlist 1 Playlist 2 REFERENCES ----------------------- Album: INA CRUELER (2023) Artist: Bricknasty 1.Ballymun 2. Guilt 2001 (Feat. Tomike) 3. ⁠Judo throw 4. ⁠Praszky 5. ⁠Fashion (Feat. Kakikid) 6. ⁠Car crash 7. ⁠Ducks ina row 8. ⁠Grace of god 9. ⁠Mouthbreather 10. ⁠Ina CruellerSingle: Boyfriend Bricknasty (2024)

Here's the concluding episode to this trilogy exploring the healing journey. I'm sure we'll visit these themes again. The focus here is: what’s right for us? How do we really feel about ourselves? How should we expect to be treated by others? What fundamental principles/qualities are non negotiable-no mater how cute you are, or regardless of your fancy lines & seductive promises? Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett REFERENCES ------------------------- Click here for the playlist for this episode........ ‘Demons’ Fatboyslim (Featuring Macey Gray) from halfway between the gutter & the stars (2001) ‘Here comes the sun’ The Beatles from Abbey Rd (1969) ‘Willin’ Little Feat from Sailing shoes (1972) ‘Little bit of love’ Free from Free at last (1972) Something good this way comes Jakob Dylan from Seeing things (2008) ‘Steamroller blues’ James Taylor from Sweet baby James (1970) ‘Rise’ Gabrielle from Rise (1999) ‘You cant fool the fatman’ Randy Newman from Little criminals (1977) ‘Wild west end’ Dire Straits from Dire Straits (1978) ‘With a little help from my friends’ Joe Cocker from With a little help from my friends (1969) movie: ‘Double indemnity’ (1944)

I continue examining change/healing..what do we do? What can we expect if we get honest, soul search & are courageous & willing to really be ourselves..? Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES ------------------------------- Click here for the playlist for this episode......... ‘Highway to hell’ AC/DC from Highway to hell (1979) ‘Shout’ Tears for Fears from songs from the big chair (1984) ‘Prazsky’ from Inner crueller (2023) by FatBoy (Bricknasty) ‘Say it to me now’ Glen Hansard from Once (2007) ‘Changes’ David Bowie from Hunky Dory (1971) ‘Gota serve somebody’ Bob Dylan from Slow train coming (1979) ‘Reasons to be cheerful pt3’ Ian Dury & the Blockheads from Sex & drugs & Rock n Roll (1977) ‘Something so right’ Paul Simon from Rhymin Simon (1973)

What do we mean when we say: I'm dealing with, I'm working through, I'm getting over something etc? What exactly does that involve? What's best possible attitude for such a venture? So another trilogy for you, in part 1, I try to identify this process, put some shape on it & shine a little light on the pathways forward.. Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES ------------------------------- Click here for the playlist link for this episode......... ‘The right thing’ (12” extended version) (1987) from Simply Red 25 the Greatest hits ‘Sweet side’ Lucinda Williams from World without tears (2003) ‘Breathe’ Anna Nillick from wreck of the day (2005) ‘Sad eyes’ Bruce Springsteen from Tracks (1998) ‘Heart of gold’ Neil Young from Harvest (1972) ‘Liberame’ Inara George from Liberame (2018) ‘Stay young’ Gallagher & Lyle from Breakaway (1976) ‘I aint movin’ Desiree (Family stand acoustic mix) (2014) F.U.N.E.X? The two Ronnies (1975) ‘Hes been a very naughty boy!’ From The life of Brian-Monty Python (1979)

Life, the universe & everything.. Why are we here? Why do we do the things we do-in the way that we do it? How do we identify meaning & purpose? Where is that ‘sweet spot’ that makes life worth living? Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES --------------------------- Click here for the playlist for this episode....... ‘Me E’s beautiful blues The Eels from Daisies of the galaxy (2000) ‘Broken Coastline’ Down like Silver single (2018) ‘The Passenger’ from Lust for life (1977) ‘One step ahead of the blues’ JJ Cale from Grasshopper (1982) ‘Rikki dont loose that number’ Steely Dan from Pretzel logic (1974) ‘I will follow you into the dark’ Death cab for cutie from Plans (2005) ‘Little things mean a lot’ Bettye Swan from Bettye Swan (2004) ‘This wild darkness Moby from Everything was beautiful, & nothing hurt (2018) ‘Sunshine’ World party from Bang! (1993) ‘Look on the bright side of life’ from Monty Pythons Life of Brian (1979)

We continue to ponder the depths & nature of this curious existence. Why are we here? Why do we do the things we do? What really matters to you? How do you make meaning for yourself? Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES Click here for the playlist for this episode....... ‘Harder than you think’ Public Enemy from How you sell your your soul to a soulless people who sold their soul (2007) (Kitchen dance tune) ‘Do you realise?’ The Flaming lips from Yoshimi battles the pink robots (2002) ‘Real love baby’ Father John Misty from Pure Comedy (2017) ‘Drunken Angel Lucinda Williams from Car wheels on a gravel road (1998) ‘You Learn’ Alanis Morisette from Jagged little pill (1995) ‘Hell is around the corner’ Tricky from Maxinquaye (1995) ‘Big jet plane Primal scream from Give out but dont give up (1994) ‘Stupid mouth shut’ Hem Rabbit songs (2001) ‘Its Just a ride’ Bill Hicks (1994) ‘Glory box Portishead (1994) ‘Walk on by’ Issac Hayes (1969) ‘Make me smile’ (come up & see me)Steve Harley & Cockney Rebel from The best years of our lives (1975) ‘Put the message in the box’ World party (Karl Wallinger) from Goodbye Jumbo (1990) ‘Drunken Angel’ Lucinda Williams from Car wheels on a gravel road (1998)

What's it all about Alfie? What is the meaning of life? Why do we do the things we do? What are we looking for? This is part 1 of an exploration into existential themes such as death, Loneliness, personal choice, freedom & responsibility. It's more than possible that if we can find purpose & meaning in our lives, it becomes bearable…& maybe even enjoyable. Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett REFERENCES ------------------------------- Click here for the playlist of this episode...... ‘Dont let it pass you by’ UB40 from present arms (1981) (kitchen dance tune)‘ I wouldn’t believe your radio Stereophonics from performance & cocktails(1999) ‘Friday im in love’ The Cure from Wish (1992) ‘Baker Street’ Gerry Rafferty from City to City (1978) ‘Against the wind’ Bob Seger from Against the Wind (1981) ‘Crazy world’ Aslan from Goodbye Charlie Moonhead (1994) ‘Cum on feel the noize’ Slade from The number 1’s (1973) ‘Some people are crazy’ John Martyn from Grace & Danger (1981) ‘The sun is shining down’ JJ Grey & Mofro from Country Ghetto (2007) ‘The Pretender’ Jackson Browne from The Pretender (1976) ‘Hit me with your rhythm stick’ Ian Dury & The Blockheads from Sex & drugs & rock n roll (1977) ‘Think for a minute’ The House Martins from London 0 Hull 4 (1986) ‘Endangered species’ Derek & Clive from Ad Nauseam (Peter Cooke & Dudley Moore) (1977) Curb your enthusiasm Season 12 - ‘One has to accept pain as a condition of existence, one has to court doubt & darkness as the cost of knowing. One needs a will stubborn in conflict, but apt always to the total acceptance of every consequence of living & dying…Morris West from The shoes of the fishermen.. Deliverance (1972)

In the episode, I explore the energy exchange in relationships, what we bring to the table, what we expect/hope for from the other. Sometimes There's misalignment/mismatch & we need to re-evaluate our choices. Either way we need to invest energy with good intention. Are you a giver or taker? Do you expect a free ride without giving something of yourself? Or do you feel ripped off, looted by the other? Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES ----------------------- Click here for the playlist of this episode..... ‘All right now’ Free from Fire & water (1970)‘ Paying my way’ Glen Hansard from Didnt he ramble (2015)‘ Sad eyed lady of the lowlife’ Alabama 3 from La Peste (2000)‘ Drive in Saturday’ David Bowie from Aladdin Sane (1973)‘ Rainey day people’ Gordon Lightfoot from Cold on the shoulder (1975)‘ Blinded by the hunt’ Rickie Lee Jones from The other side of desire (2015)‘ When it comes down to it’ Tasmin Archer from Great expectations (1992)‘ Red house’ Jimi Hendrix from Are you experienced (967) ‘Jeepster’ T.Rex from Electric warrior (1971) ‘Eclipse’ Pink Floyd from Dark side of the moon (1973)‘ Teardrop’ Massive attack from Mezzanine (1998)‘ ‘The nickel song’ Melanie from The good book (1971)‘ Walk on the wild side’ Lou Reed from Transformer (1972) Little fluffy clouds’ The Orb (featuring Rickie Lee Jones interview) from The Orb’s adventures beyond the ultra world (1990) Topboy Ch4 Netflix (yeh Fam!) The Wire Sky Atlantic Netflix (you feel me muthafucka!) Curb your enthusiasm (Larry David) Sky Atlantic Sky Comedy Season 12 Ep5 (Breakfast cut off at 11am!)

‘Holistic therapist’, Joni, talks to us about food, nutrients, nourishment, breathing, movement, deep sobbing, deep laughter, deep insight & so much more! We journey through motherhood, travel & tap into her incredible healing capacity.. In her beautiful vulnerability she embraces openly her readiness for romantic/intimate love…& guys..she's super fucking hot!!! So get those CV’s rollin in! Podcast Engineer & Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES ------------------------- Click here for the music playlist from this Episode..... ‘Rock’n me’ (kitchen dance tune) Steve Miller band from Fly like an eagle (1976)‘ Dont leave’ Faithless from Forever Faithless-the greatest hits (1996)‘ Three babies’ Sinead O’Connor from I dont want what i havnt got (1990)‘ Mother & Child reunion’ Paul Simon from the essential Paul Simon (1972)‘ I cry every day’ Shelby Lynne from Suit yourself (2005)‘ Closer to fine’ Indigo girls from The essential Indigo girls (1978)‘ Lowdown’ Boz Scaggs from Silk Degrees (1976)‘ Marrakesh express’ Crosby, Stills & Nash From Crosby, Stills & Nash (1969)‘ Chocolate girl’ Deacon blue from Our town-The greatest hits (1992)‘ State of independence’ Donna Summer from Donna Summer (1982) Landslide’ Stevie Nicks with Melbourne symphonic orchestra (2007)‘ Crazy Mama’ JJ Cale from Naturally (1971) ‘Healing in her hands’ Papa Chubby from Booty & the beast (1995)‘ Dont stop me mow’ Queen from Jazz (1978)‘ Soul rebel’ Rumer from Boys dont cry (2012)‘ Sweet thing’ Van Morrison from Astral weeks (1968)‘ Open to love’ Will Kimbrough from Wings (2010)‘ Both sides now’ Joni Mitchell from Both sides now (2000)‘ After A While - Adam Ricker NOTE - Joni Mitchell not available on Spotify try itunes or yutube

Healing hurt, shame, despair through feeling our sadness/pain, openness to forgiveness/redemption & letting go.. Integration is crucial as is the renegotiation around the meaning of our pain.. Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES --------------- CLICK HERE FOR MUSIC PLAYLIST FOR THIS EPISODE ‘Pigs on the wing Pt 1 Pink Floyd from Animals 1977‘ Dirty work Steely Dan from Cant buy a thrill (1972) ‘Lies’ JJ Cale from Really 1972) ‘Stuck in the middle with you’ Stealers Wheel from Stealers Wheel (1972) ‘Everybody hurts’ REM from Automatic for the people (1992)‘ Hands of time’ Groove armada (featuring Ritchie Havens) from Love Box (1997) ‘Moment of forgiveness’ Indigo girls from Become you (2002) ‘Criminal’ Fiona Apple from Tidal (1996) ‘Ive been let down’ Mazy Star from Among my swan (1996)‘ Feel so sad’ (Chimes & glides) Spiritualised from The complete works (2003)‘ In your care’ Tasmin Archer from great expectations (1992)‘ Numb’ Portishead from Dummy (1994) ‘Sad & Blue’ Primal scream from Give out but don’t give up (1994‘ Part of the process’ Morcheeba from Big calm (1998)‘ Bookends’ Simon & Garfunkel from Bookends (1968)‘ Pigs on the wing’ Pt 2 Pink Floyd from Animals (1977)‘ The laptop sketch’ The Limmy Show‘ Reservoir dogs’ Tarantino (1992)‘ The Primal Scream’ Arthur Janov‘ Beyond the brain’ Stanislav Groff Addiction-thirst for wholeness’ Christina Groff

Lets explore loneliness together, aloneness, being lonesome, sad, hurt, lost & in despair..& maybe.. just maybe we will find real peace, healing & joy.. Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett CLICK HERE FOR THE MUSIC PLAYLIST OF THIS EPISODE....... MUSIC REFERENCING ------------------------ ‘So lonely’ The Police from Outlandos D’mour (1978) ‘One’ Amy Mann from the motion picture ‘Magnolia’ (1999) ‘When love breaks down’ Prefab Sprout from the album Steve Mcqueen (1985 )‘When will you make my phone ring’ Deacon Blue from the album Raintown (1977) ‘Deacon blues’ Steely Dan from the album Aja (1977) ‘Shame on the moon’ Bob Seger & The silver bullet band from the album The distance (1982)‘ Lonely sinking feeling’ The Cowboy junkies from the album Lay it down (1996)‘ Tired of being alone’ Al Green from the album Al Green gets next to you (1971) ‘Elanor Rigby’ The Beatles from the album Revolver (1966)‘ Woncha come on home’ Joan Armatrading from the album Show some emotion (1977)‘ Isolation’ John Lennon from the album The plastic ono band (1977)‘ Coney island baby’ Lou Reed from the album Coney Island baby (1975)‘ I think its gona rain today’ Randy Newman from the album Randy Newman (1968)‘ Its a beautiful thing Ocean colour scene from the album Marchin already (1996)‘ Miss you Blues’ Mark knophler from the album Privateering (2012)

Lets explore loneliness together, aloneness, being lonesome, sad, hurt, lost & in despair..& maybe.. just maybe we will find real peace, healing & joy.. Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett CLICK HERE FOR THE MUSIC PLAYLIST OF THIS EPISODE....... MUSIC REFERENCING ------------------------ ‘So lonely’ The Police from Outlandos D’mour (1978) ‘One’ Amy Mann from the motion picture ‘Magnolia’ (1999) ‘When love breaks down’ Prefab Sprout from the album Steve Mcqueen (1985 )‘When will you make my phone ring’ Deacon Blue from the album Raintown (1977) ‘Deacon blues’ Steely Dan from the album Aja (1977) ‘Shame on the moon’ Bob Seger & The silver bullet band from the album The distance (1982)‘ Lonely sinking feeling’ The Cowboy junkies from the album Lay it down (1996)‘ Tired of being alone’ Al Green from the album Al Green gets next to you (1971) ‘Elanor Rigby’ The Beatles from the album Revolver (1966)‘ Woncha come on home’ Joan Armatrading from the album Show some emotion (1977)‘ Isolation’ John Lennon from the album The plastic ono band (1977)‘ Coney island baby’ Lou Reed from the album Coney Island baby (1975)‘ I think its gona rain today’ Randy Newman from the album Randy Newman (1968)‘ Its a beautiful thing Ocean colour scene from the album Marchin already (1996)‘ Miss you Blues’ Mark knophler from the album Privateering (2012)

In the final part of the dream trilogy, we take a closer look at the exciting, free flowing & experimental nature of Gestalt dreamwork.. Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES ------------------------- CLICK HERE FOR LINK TO PLAYLIST. ‘Dreaming’ Blondie-from Eat the beat (1979)‘ Lucy in the sky with diamonds’ The Beatles-from Sergeant peppers lonely hearts club band (1967) Sailing’ Christopher Cross-from Christopher Cross (1979)‘ For Emily, whenever i might find her’ Simon & Garfunkel-from Parsley, Sage, Rosemary & Thyme (1967) ‘Astral weeks’ Van Morrison-from Astral weeks (1968)‘ #9Dream’ John Lennon-from Walls & bridges (1974)‘ Little Dreamer’ Peter Green-from Little Dreamer (1980)‘ Gestalt Therapy verbatim’ Fritz Perls (& Laura Perls) (1969)

We continue exploring the mysterious world and healing power of dreaming, drawing from the wisdom of Carl Jung. Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES ------------------ Moonage daydream-David Bowie from ‘The rise & fall of ziggy Stardust & the spiders from mars’ (1972) ‘The holyman on the Malibu bus number three..’ Dory Previn from Mary C Brown & the Hollywood sign (1972)‘ Hold back the night’ The Trammps from The best of the Trammps (1978) ‘All that you dream’ Little Feat from The last record album (1975) ‘Brand new Key’ Melanie from Gather me (1971) ‘Beautiful sadness’ Melanie from Ballroom streets (1979)‘ Thinking of a place’ War on Drugs from A deeper understanding (2017) ‘Telegraph poles’ The Frames (1991) ‘Dreaming my dreams with you’ Cowboy junkies from The Trinity sessions (1998) Carl Jung: ‘The essential Jung’ selected writings.‘The Red book’ (A readers edition)Memories, dreams, reflections (an autobiography) 1961 ‘’Telegraph poles’ The Frames from another love song (1991)

In part 1 of this trilogy, I explore dreams from a psychoanalytical perspective, leaning into Freud & Lacan. I dip into surrealism and Hitchcock suspense movies & we ask what kinda therapy is Redzer actually providing! Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES ----------------- Dreamer-Supertramp-Crime of the century (1974) Entangled-Genesis-Trick of the tail (1976) Sweet Dream-Jethro Tull-Bursting out (live) (1978) There goes my first love-The Drifters-from same named album-(1975) Dreams-Gabrielle-Find your way (1993) Roadhouse blues-The Doors-Morrison hotel (1970) Movie ref: ‘Spellbound’ director: Alfred Hitchcock (1945) ‘2 Soups’ Sketch-Julie Walters (1986) Victoria Woods as seen on tv Robert Chambers-Hildred Casgaine-‘The King in yellow (1985) True Detective season 4 ‘Night Country’ Freud/Lacan dream analysis ref: Vinny Judge

We discuss instinct, the backbone of intuition, trauma triggers & relationship with intuition. We pay our respects to the unforgettable Connie, who is a year passed this month - we miss you Connie… Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett MUSIC REFERENCES ---------- The Jean Genie-David Bowie Aladdin sane 1973 Wasting time-Jack Johnson On & On 2003 Long train running-Doobie Brothers-Captain Jack 1975 I've gota feeling-The Beatles Let it be 1970 Simple Twist of fate-Bob Dylan Blood on the tracks 1975 Angel from Montgomery-Bonnie Raitt/John Prine The Bonnie Raitt collection 1990 Fill your heart-David Bowie Hunky Dory 1971 Orange Sky-Alexi Murdoch Music from the OC Mix 2004 The Midnight rider-Alman Brothers Idleweed 1970 (Reggae version Paul Davidson 1976) Don't slow down UB40 Present arms 1981 Angel-Jimi Hendrix The cry of love 1971 I know what I know-Paul Simon Graceland 1986

We continue to explore this irresistible, intoxicating & at times mercurial quality: ‘Intuition’ what exactly is it? Can it even be described? Or should we just leave it to the magic & mystery of the cosmos? Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett

What is this strange, uncanny & sometimes breath-taking awareness that can hit us like a thunderbolt?, from a place that can only be described as Gods country! Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett

In this episode, I continue to explore the multifaceted process of healing from coercive control & dark tetrad abuse. This can be frustrated & aggravated by social/political/cultural mores that are being influenced by far right misogynistic, racist, bigoted, authoritarian/fascist rhetoric being disseminated via propaganda/disinformation at an alarming rate. Podcast Editor - Ger Kellett