Best Life After

Prologue

Part 1: The Making of a Believer/Chapter 1: Before I Believed

Little Girl

Stolen Tears

Pit

Cry

Where I Am

Chapter 2: The Emptiness of Enough

Part 2: Saltwater Salvation/Chapter 3: Drinking the Sea

Hope in the Stormy Sea

Chapter 4: When the Storm Cleared

Part 3: A Quiet Unraveling/Chapter 5: The Medicine for Madness

Chapter 6: Freedom at What Cost?

Excuse Me Lord

Imagine

Jesus' Sacrifice is Free

Here I Am

Is This the Way?

It Seems So Easy

Poem of the Seeds

I Love You

Worth

Spear

I Beg You

Part 4: Self-Gaslighting Gospel/Chapter 7: Secret Santa

Apostate

What If

I Can't See

Not Sure

Is It Me?

Part 5: Reflections on Righteous Corrections/Chapter 8: Making Satan Smile

Hey, You There

Inherently Sinful

Precious Child, Die

You, I Can Do Without

He Picked Up Too Much

I Thought He Died For Me

If I Can, Can You?

Mercy

I Don't Know

Part 6: Holy Burnout/Chapter 9: Dark Angel

Fighting Pits

Shadow of a Man

Daddy

Seven Year Sacrifice

Reputation

Love Bombed by God

Muted Music

Part 7: Ashes After Amen/Chapter 10: Disillusioned Daughter

Tyrannical Love

Why

Sacred Break Up

How Dare I Love Myself

Divorcing the Divine

Unanswered Prayer

Jehovah, Jekyll, and Hyde

Successful Failure

They Weren't There

Numb

Hurt

Part 8: The Exit Wound/Chapter 11: Generational Trauma

Chapter 12: My Protector Turned Prisoner

Grandma

Hope and Smoke

Stages of Deconstruction

No Easy Task

Sister

Hope

Enough

Abyss

Rabbit Hole

Chapter 13: The Cost of Breaking Cycles

Part 9: Spiritual Freefall/Chapter 14: Disfellowshipped and Disillusioned

Chapter 15: Spiritual Skydiving Without a Parachute

How Can I Tell

Outsider

They

Plaything

We're Stories

Entertainment

Puppet

Send Me

Not Everyone

Spiritual Awakening

Coping Mechanism

Fucking Over It

Part 10: Birth of Self Worth/Chapter 16: The Crime of Autonomy

Chapter 17: Leaping Without Faith

Love and Security

Fighting Suicide

I Am

Good Person

Dear Life

I Will Not

I Win

Chapter 18: Worthy

Chapter 19: What Would Jesus Do?

Epilogue

Ending Credits