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First Day Back is a documentary podcast that follows filmmaker Tally Abecassis as she tries to return to her career after having kids. By turns serious, funny, and touching, First Day Back takes a real-life look at motherhood, gender roles, work-life balance, and mom freelancers by following Tally’s story.




The Refuge (Season 2, Episode 6)

Lucie obsesses over Gerry’s death, her regret about what she did and her inability to remember what happened the night she killed him. How will she find some sliver of peace? Her search for forgiveness leads her to an unlikely source.

Duration: 00:22:36

The Doubters (Season 2, Episode 5)

Six years after Gerry’s death, close friends from Lucie’s past make a startling accusation. How will Lucie cope?

Duration: 00:20:23

Lucie Island (Season 2, Episode 4)

Even as Lucie reconnects with family and spends more time outside the transition house, she finds herself increasingly isolated.

Duration: 00:25:38

The Transition House (Season 2, Episode 3)

Once Lucie gets her day parole from prison, she has one foot in the correctional system and the other in the regular world. She gets tiny rations of freedom in the transition house where she lives, but she soon realizes her crime is going to follow her wherever she goes.

Duration: 00:27:23

The Prelim (Season 2 Episode 2)

Lucie is charged with first-degree murder after police arrive at her home and find her husband shot dead. She hires a top lawyer, but there’s one huge problem: How do you defend yourself when you have no memory of what happened?

Duration: 00:28:38

Lovebirds (Season 2 Episode1)

Lucie and her husband Gerry were together for 13 years. People called them lovebirds. Until the fall of 2010, when she shot and killed him. And here's the thing: Lucie has no memory of killing him. This season on First Day Back, how do you come back from the worst thing you’ve ever done when you don't even remember doing it?

Duration: 00:27:55

Coming Soon: First Day Back Season 2

First Day Back returns this season with the story of Lucie and Gerry, lovebirds who were together for 13 years. Until the fall of 2010, when Lucie accidentally shot and killed him. And here's the thing. She has no memory of doing it. Lucie's story isn't just about what she did, it's about the aftermath. How does she come back from the worst thing she's ever done, when she doesn't even remember doing it? Season 2 of First Day Back debuts April 11, with new episodes out every Tuesday.

Duration: 00:02:45

#10 Special: Mother's Day

A short piece for Mother’s Day. Something different that is not part of the First Day Back storyline. Stay tuned for details on Season 2!

Duration: 00:08:57

#9: Generations

What happens when Tally's life starts mirroring the subject of her film? Also she talks to a 97 year-old woman and a Millennial who both reject the idea of "having it all".

Duration: 00:19:51

#8: Your Stories

In this episode, listeners sent in recordings of themselves talking about work, parenthood and, how hard it is to know what to do with your life, with kids or without.

Duration: 00:18:59

#7: Good News, Bad News

Tally gets news about her film project, compares notes with a friend who didn’t have kids, and hears about her youngest son’s turnaround.

Duration: 00:19:08

#6: Searching for Sally

This episode is a little departure. In it, Tally goes looking for a teacher who had a huge impact on her life and career.

Duration: 00:20:44

#5: Curveball

In this episode, Tally meets her old producer, who cautions her that she is re-entering a different documentary industry than the one she left and Tally’s son Jack throws her a curveball.

Duration: 00:19:42

#4: Fear and Insecurity in Las Vegas

An episode about creativity and insecurity. Questions are raised about Tally's ability to jump back in after 6 years off and she talks to a painter who says some things she is afraid to say.

Duration: 00:19:44

#3: Patti Smith Made Me Feel Better

What's the difference between taking time off to take care of your kids versus taking that time to travel the world? Tally and her producer discuss it. Also, Patti Smith knows about mothering.

Duration: 00:18:49

#2: This Discussion is Retro

Tally looks at gender roles in hers and other households and asks her father what feminism means to him. Spoiler alert: he has no clue.

Duration: 00:21:30

#1: Getting Back Out There

In which Tally lays out her situation and tries to jump-start her filmmaking career, asking big questions to her family members along the way.

Duration: 00:20:11