The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast

Dear Diary & Listeners, There are a few moments that leave me truly speechless. There are fewer moments that leave me in an aftermath of tears. Tonight, you get to experience one of those with me. Welcome back to The Amanda Show I guess... ...but like Be fucking nice to each other. For real. xoxo, Amanda

Hey Listeners, This episode marks the beginning of a very different season. In Season 1, you heard me, raw and unraveling, in the thick of it. But Season 2? We're zooming out. Years have passed for Ashley—and what you're about to hear isn’t someone cracking wide open in real-time... it’s someone flipping back through the chapters, trying to make sense of a story she was too busy surviving to process. You’ll literally hear us flipping pages—yes, actual pages—as Ashley tries to recall the timeline of how it all went down. It’s a little chaotic, sometimes blurry, but that’s the point. Trauma doesn’t always leave behind a neat trail. And when your life becomes a series of pivots you never planned for? Sometimes you need a notebook just to remember how you got here. Ashley opens up about the shame she felt in her first major relationship—the kind of shame no one prepares you for. The kind that makes you doubt yourself. That makes you feel like something’s off, but you stay anyway. Because life is happening fast. And motherhood doesn’t come with a pause button for healing. This is the start of Ashley’s story. And while she might not fully realize how much pain still lingers... you will. We’re not rushing through it. We’re honoring it. One page at a time. Thanks for being here. —Amanda Arnier, Your Host The Dichotomy Diaries 💉Season 2 is proudly sponsored by Vita Bella💚 On The Dichotomy Diaries, we talk a lot about surviving—and how true healing doesn’t just happen in your heart... it happens on a cellular level. That’s where Vita Bella comes in. NAD+ alone can improve cognitive function, energy, metabolism, and even emotional regulation. If you’ve been running on fumes emotionally or physically, this might be your body’s way of saying: it's time. Use code DD50 for $50 off your Performance Membership every month, for life. Explore NAD+ Therapy Your next chapter starts with your cells. 🧬 Follow Vita Bella: Instagram | TikTok | Facebook | YouTube 📸Give Ashley a Follow💋 Ashley Klemm doesn’t just take photos—she helps women reclaim their confidence, their sensuality, and their stories. Through boudoir photography, she creates a safe, empowering space for survivors, mothers, and everyday women to feel beautiful in their own skin—sometimes for the first time. Ready to see what healing looks like through her lens? Follow Ashley Klemm Boudoirs: Website | Instagram | Facebook | TikTok 💻Connect with The Dichotomy Diaries🎙️ Music by Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Support & Stream More: Patreon – Ad-Free + Full Episodes Merch Storefront YouTube | Website Support the Show via PayPal Follow us on: Instagram | TikTok | Facebook

Y'all.... Sometimes podcasting—especially when you're unpacking the darkest chapters of people’s lives—can really take a toll on you. Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries is locked and loaded, but let me be honest… prerecording everything, batching edits, and stepping away from the mic weekly? It messed me up more than I expected. I thought I was being efficient. But in reality? It made it easier to disconnect. To avoid. To put it off. So here’s my reset: Okay Hear Me Out is my way back to weekly mic time. Unfiltered, unscheduled, and a little unhinged. Think Joe Rogan meets Theo Von—but with Midwest Feminine Energy and a lot more unpopular opinions (and maybe a little more sass). Let’s talk. Weekly. Again. ----more---- Ashley Klemm is a boudoir photographer, mother, and survivor who empowers women to feel their best in their own skin—both through her lens and her story. She’s known for capturing raw confidence and speaking her truth without a filter. Ashley joins Amanda Arnier for the debut of Okay, Hear Me Out—talking toxic thought patterns, not-so-hot takes, and a whole lot of opposing viewpoints on modern dating, relationships, and everything in between. ----more---- Give Ashley a Follow Ashley Klemm Boudoirs Website Ashley Klemm Boudoirs Instagram Ashley Klemm Boudoirs Facebook Ashley Klemm Boudoirs TikTok

Dear Diary & Listeners, There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims. When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to discredit the person who knows exactly what they’ve done. That’s why this episode is so important. Before you hear what happened to Ashley, you need to know who she is. The woman behind the story. Her background, her voice, her perspective—because understanding her as a human being is everything. Once the truth unfolds, you’ll see why the people who try the hardest to silence victims are the ones with the most to hide. Welcome to The Eye of the Storm... Forever Speaking the Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS Connect with Ashley below: Boudoir Photography Website Send Nudes Podcast Boudoir Photography Facebook Boudoir Photography Instagram Boudoir Photography TikTok WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR STORYS TO SHARE! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is ready to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Pitch Your Story Here Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Ashley Klemm Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: Exclusive Video Episodes & More! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm—a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season. Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle. Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone for a season marked by turbulent truths and fierce resilience. Forever Sharing Our Truths, Amanda & Ashley Connect with Ashley below: Boudoir Photography Website Send Nudes Podcast Boudoir Photography Facebook Boudoir Photography Instagram Boudoir Photography TikTok WANT TO SHARE YOUR STORY ON THE DICHOTOMY DIARIES? If you have experienced anything similar and are willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Submit Your Story Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Amanda Arnier Graphic Design: Ashley Klemm & Amanda Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, I’d be lying if I said getting to this last episode of The Dichotomy Diaries was anything close to a walk in the park. In truth, it’s been a grueling journey—one that has required me to face the ashes of my past and find a way to rise above them. Starting and maintaining this podcast has been the single hardest thing I’ve done, forcing me to dissect my experiences and uncover the roots of my pain. Much like the haunting echoes in Illenium’s From the Ashes, I've wrestled with being broken down only to rise again. That song is close to my heart because, just as Phoenix shaped who I am today, it’s also where I became my most broken. It's ironic: Phoenix both created and nearly destroyed me. As humans, we crave understanding. When faced with unanswered questions, we can either bury them or seek answers, no matter the cost. So, yes—I fucked around and found out, and I don't regret it. There were days I wanted to give up, to disappear from the internet entirely. But each day, I rose with purpose, determined to see this through. And while this process has been healing, it has also been intensely challenging, revealing both sadness and the joy of personal transformation. Hosting this podcast has unintentionally filtered out the wrong people from my life—The Fuck Boy Filter, if you will. Those who approached me should have known that I have no patience for those who aren’t genuine or respectful. It's worked, more or less, but I have encountered some strange birds along the way. Thankfully, the DMs have slowed, and the wildest proposals now feel like a distant memory. Even better, the podcast has acted as a background check, a sort of litmus test for anyone new who enters my life. I am so happy to mention that the new man in my life is beyond amazing. Though he respects my work and acknowledges my commitment, he hasn’t listened to a single episode. Initially, I was disappointed—it’s my art, after all. But then, I realized that not everyone needs to know every detail. True connection doesn’t need to know the scars in high definition; it can see the resilience in your eyes and recognize your strength without needing every gritty detail. I am positive that if he tuned in, he’d be fuming just a few minutes into the first episode. And honestly? I can’t blame him. I hope this final episode brings you the closure it brought me. I hope you found value in listening to my journey, and if you did, I’d love to hear about it. My DMs are always open. As I wrap up Season 1 of The Dichotomy Diaries, I find myself reflecting on all I’ve endured and overcome. There were countless times when I was faced with people trying to burn down everything I had worked to rebuild. To those who wanted to see me fall, here’s my response: What do you want from me tonight? You wanna burn down everything in sight? I’ve walked through the flames and emerged stronger, unafraid of what comes next. Because I’ve realized I’m not just surviving this fire; I’m thriving in it. So go on, light your matches, and watch as I rise from the ashes. Thank you for standing beside me in the fire. Season 2 awaits... Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS I WANT TO HEAR YOUR STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England AV Production: Amanda Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I welcome Kyree Oliver, the world’s leading masculinity coach featured on: FOX, CNBC, Inc., ABC, ESPN, MSN, NBC News, & CBS; for a thought-provoking discussion on personal transformation, relationships, and redefining masculinity. With a background in psychology and marketing, Kyree shares insights into what sets his coaching approach apart and why his clients seek him out after working with others. The conversation dives into the balance between support and challenge, the power of storytelling in shaping identity, and the often-overlooked nuances of masculinity. Kyree and I explore the dynamics of relationships, the importance of authenticity, and the challenges of staying true to oneself in a world full of expectations. From navigating difficult conversations and setting boundaries to understanding the complexities of energy in relationships, this bonus episode offers a fresh perspective on what it means to grow and connect in today's world. Whether you’re curious about the modern take on masculinity or looking for advice on personal growth and relationships, this episode is a must-listen. Don’t miss out on the powerful insights and practical advice that could change the way you see yourself and those around you. Forever Speaking Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS HOW DO I GET IN TOUCH WITH KYREE? Website: https://www.kyree.com Kyree's Course: The Man Inside: Personal Power Through Identity Instagram: @kyree YouTube: ‪@Kyreeoliver94 TikTok: @kyreeoliver Twitter: @kyreeoliver Facebook: @kyreeoliver1994 WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

TRIGGER WARNING: This episode of The Dichotomy Diaries discusses sexual assault in detail. If this topic is triggering for you, please take care of yourself and consider skipping this episode. Dear Diary & Listeners, The past few months have been a serious struggle for me. I’ve been dragging my feet on wrapping up Season 1 of the podcast, stuck in this frustrating writers' block. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing like I used to, keeping me up late into the night creating for you all. I think I know what sparked the shift, but it’s still a bit confusing. I reconnected with someone who just gets my brain. Being around him feels amazing—safe, even. It’s like all the overthinking noise in my head quieted down for a change. But here’s the thing: I need challenges in my life to stay motivated. I thrive on goals to work toward every day. This podcast was that challenge for me. But as Season 1 wrapped up and I got to the final interview, I looked around and thought, “WTF? This is too easy now.” And you know what? The most unexpected challenge I found was in my own head. My new relationship is healthy and fulfilling, but I’m literally challenging my traumatized brain every day not to go off the deep end and screw it all up. Can you imagine that feeling? Being completely happy and fulfilled, yet your brain is like, “ABORT! Everyone's a liar!” It’s a wild ride. Here’s the thing I didn’t know: there are people out there who see you struggling, who actually help and affirm your feelings, and who can take a horrible situation born from trauma and make it better. Yep, not worse—better. So, that brings me to why I’m sharing what I’m sharing today. I’m going to take you back to something that happened to me about 11 years ago. It was traumatic then, and it still is to think about (I definitely had a few mini panic attacks while recording this—watch it on YouTube if you want to see how wild it was). I’ll walk you through one of my first Tinder dates, back when it was the hottest dating app out there. As I always say, shame has no home inside me. I made some bad choices that put me in danger, and I need to own up to that. I want to share it with you so you can see, 1) we all make mistakes, 2) how serious those mistakes can be, 3) what you can do to avoid them, and 4) the tools you need to stay safe in this crazy dating world. Maybe it’s because I feel safe, seen, and truly loved right now, but I really want to get this off my chest. I’m not going to lie, though—this is rough. It’s graphic, and if you have any issues with content related to sexual assault, I suggest you skip this episode. As always, thanks for giving me a place to be 100% myself. Thank you for listening to me without judgment. You all keep me going. Oh, and PS: I’m so glad to be back on the mic. Forever Sharing My Truth, Amanda WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England AV Production: Amanda Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH. If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to. Enjoy! Amanda --------------------------------------------------- In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people. Topics Discussed: Dr. Vaknin Amanda brings her unique perspective from "The Dichotomy Diaries," where she recounts her relationship with Dick and shares the experiences of other women who were also involved with him. This episode discusses the complexities of narcissists, strategies for navigating toxic dynamics, and the importance of sharing these stories for healing. Please tune in for an intimate and revealing dialogue that offers a deeper understanding of Amanda’s mission and the powerful stories she shares with her audience. Subscribe and listen to "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" and "The Dichotomy Diaries" on your favorite podcast platforms. Don't forget to rate, review, and share! Book mentioned in this episode: The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Values, and Spiritual Growth by M. Scott Peck M.D. Content Warning: This episode discusses various forms of toxic abuse, narcissistic abuse, and any topics that may disturb some listeners. Listener discretion is advised. We are not doctors or therapists; you should not take our opinions as medical advice. Hosts: Behk & LAH Follow us on Instagram + Facebook @ngcompod Production & Design: LAHarden Music: No Reason Why by Anchor Help us keep the show going on Patreon Narcissists, Gaslighters, Cheaters, Oh My! Podcast's Patreon The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast's Patreon WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listener's, I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story. Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street. Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit! Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts. In this episode Dr. Nadine Macaluso, a licensed marriage and family therapist, shares her story of being married to Jordan Belfort, the Wolf of Wall Street, and how it led her to write a book and become an advocate for trauma bonding and pathological lovers. She discusses the challenges of having her life portrayed in a movie and the lack of control she had over the narrative. Dr. Macaluso emphasizes the importance of self-reflection and understanding one's own vulnerabilities in order to break free from toxic relationships. She also explores the concept of cognitive dissonance and the difficulty of leaving an abusive partner. The conversation explores the themes of healing from trauma bonds, finding one's voice, and navigating new relationships after abuse. Dr. Nae and I emphasize the importance of self-compassion and grace in the healing process. The conversation also touches on the challenges of co-parenting and the impact of trauma bonds on children. We both share their personal experiences and offer hope for post-traumatic growth and reinvention. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Be sure to check below for Dr. Nadine's website where you can order her book Run Like Hell and explore many of her free tools, like the Self Compassion Assessment we discussed in this episode. Give Dr. Nae a follow on her social media, all linked below as well! ‪@TheRealDrNadine‬ Website: https://drnae.com/about-dr-nadine-mac... Free Assessments by Dr. Nae: https://drnae.com/assessments/ Order Run Like Hell Book Here: https://drnae.com/run-like-hell-book/ Instagram: / therealdrnadine TikTok: / drnaelmft Twitter: / therealdrnadine Facebook: / drnaelmft WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this exciting Bonus Episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I interview the beautiful, bad ass, Vanessa Reiser, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker from The Big Apple who's got a BOOK coming out soon! (Pre-Order Link Below!) We talk about SO many juicy topics including the connection between narcissistic abuse and cults, the behavior and mindset of narcissists and psychopaths, and dissect the experience of victims down piece by piece. We touch on the confusing role most family members take in (not) warning others about the narcissist in their life. Join us as we break down the challenges of conveying the complexity of narcissistic abuse in a concise manner others. A topic that I've really struggled with lately... This episode also explores trauma bonding and addiction in narcissistic relationships. Vanessa and I talk about the repetitive cycle of love bombing, devaluing, and discarding, which creates a trauma bond and intense addiction to the makeup session. Vanessa emphasizes the need for support and understanding for those trying to extricate themselves from these relationships, comparing it to drug addiction. Not to mention the post-separation abuse that can occur, which more often than not, includes attempts to destroy the victim's life. I had SO MUCH FUN chatting in up with Vanessa and learning all the things from her not only about my relationship with Dick, but about important topics and congruencies I wasn't even aware of. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Be sure to check below for Vanessa's website, how to find her on Social Media, and Pre-Order her new book: Narcissistic Abuse: A Therapist's Guide to Identifying, Escaping, and Healing from Toxic and Manipulative People. @vanessareiserlcsw-narcissi5380 Website: https://www.tellatherapist.net Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/vanessareiserlcsw TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@vanessareiser BOOK PRE ORDER: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0306833174 WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Vanessa Reiser, LCSW Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, I think we may have uncovered something important during this episode... As Savana and I discuss how her and Dick's engagement came to an abrupt end, I realize that I share with her that she had NO idea about. Imagine her surprise when I fill her in on what HER FIANCE was doing way back when. Better yet, imagine the AUDACITY this man has to tell me the truth about his whereabouts and doings, while completely leaving out the fact that he was actively engaged to this beautiful human. Savana and I really want to emphasize how important it is to continue to do things for YOURSELF while in a relationship, NEW or OLD, you need to maintain your sense of self at all cost. Luckily for Savana, Dick wasn't able to break her spirit like he did many others, myself included. Savana's fighter soul is what gave her the strength to persevere and know what was best for her... A LIFE WITHOUT DICK. Let's be honest, that's literally what's best for everyone. I hope you enjoyed hearing Savana's story and have some good takeaways. Whether you're in a similar relationship, or know someone who is struggling to get out- just remember that your presence matters in the life of others. Whether they are gracious or not. Forever Sharing My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Savana's Hair Instagram Savana's Personal Instagram Savana's TikTok WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Savana Martin Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In today’s episode, I am joined by a very special guest—Savana, who was once engaged to Dick. From the moment I reached out to her, Savana has been a pillar of support in uncovering the shocking truths about our shared ex. Savana’s story is one of beauty, resilience, and positive energy. She brings her sassy and captivating personality to this conversation, making for an episode you won't want to miss. Together, we dive into the complexities of their experiences with Dick, revealing insights that are both startling and compelling. This episode marks part one of their revealing conversation, titled “Straight to Zelle.” Be sure to give Savana a follow, her social media links are listed below! Oh, go check out the video recording of this podcast, now live on YouTube. Don’t forget to subscribe to our channel, each podcast episode drops on YouTube before anywhere else! Forever Sharing My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Savana's Hair Instagram Savana's Personal Instagram Savana's TikTok Stay tuned for PART 2 of Straight to Zelle coming out NEXT WEEK! WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Savana Martin Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, HAPPY SUMMER SOLSTICE! I know right? Quite coincidental for the LAST part of Ambre's story to be released wouldn't you say? I love it when things like that happen. I also love it when you can tell by the look in someone's face that a weight has been lifted from sharing something they kept to themselves for so long. I applaud Ambre for making herself vulnerable and putting herself out there by telling this story. In this episode you will hear some pretty shocking things... From Dick's unconventional bedroom requests to a new scary part to his persona- stalking... I hope you enjoy Summer Solstice Part 3. Please make sure you give Ambre a follow, her links are below and make sure you head over and subscribe to YouTube. All episodes are released there FIRST. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Instagram: @AmbreFit YouTube: @ambrefit Twitter: @TheAmbreFit TikTok: @AmbreFit www.AmbreFit.com WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Ambre McKee Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this powerful and raw episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, Amanda sits down with Ambre to uncover the many layers of their toxic relationships. The conversation delves into several deeply personal themes, including: Strained Family Dynamics: Amanda shares insights into the troubled relationship between her husband and his father, exposing the negative family dynamics and emotional abuse she endured. Financial Control and Manipulation: Both Amanda and Ambre discuss the financial issues they faced, including how their partners used money as a tool for control and manipulation. Emotional and Verbal Abuse: They recount the hurtful comments, derogatory language, and verbal attacks that characterized their relationships, highlighting the damaging impact on their mental health. Gambling Addiction: The episode explores the significant role that Amanda's husband's gambling addiction played in their lives, adding another layer of complexity to the abuse. Conflict Diffusion: Amanda and Ambre describe their roles as peacemakers in constant conflicts, often at the expense of their own well-being. Suspicious Friendships: The conversation also touches on the suspicious and unhealthy relationship between Amanda's husband, Dick, and his friend Matt. The episode continues with Ambre's experiences of manipulation, coercion, and financial abuse in her relationship. Key points include: Broken Promises and Anxiety: Ambre recounts how her partner's broken promises left her feeling scared and anxious, a sentiment Amanda relates to deeply. Self-Prioritization and Derogation: They discuss how their partners prioritized themselves, often putting Ambre down and making her feel insignificant. Steroids and Hormone Therapy: Ambre shares how her partner's involvement with steroids and hormone therapy affected their relationship, including an incident of physical aggression. Car Situation: They talk about the partner's procrastination in getting a new car, reflecting his overall lack of responsibility. Finally, Amanda and Ambre discuss their experiences living with a narcissist, shedding light on: Unstable Living Conditions: They share stories of being moved to different apartments without consent, contributing to financial instability. Empty Promises: The narcissists' habit of making promises and failing to follow through, leaving them in precarious situations during trips and daily life. Obsession with Fitness: The narcissists' fixation on gyms and fitness, and how it impacted their relationships. Dangerous Behavior: Accounts of physically aggressive behavior during "play fights" and the narcissists' lack of remorse. Through this candid conversation, Amanda and Ambre highlight the manipulative, unpredictable, and damaging nature of their relationships with narcissists. Tune in to hear their stories and gain a deeper understanding of the complex dynamics of abusive relationships. Remember to share this episode if it resonates with you or someone you know, and follow The Dichotomy Diaries for more stories of strength and resilience. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Ambre McKee Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In today's episode, I had the pleasure of sitting down with Ambre to delve into the whirlwind of emotions and experiences that come with falling in love with a Wolf in Sheep's clothing. Ambre takes us through her journey of meeting our shared ex, where the sparks flew and the relationship progressed rapidly. She opens up about the initial attraction, the deepening of their feelings, and the shared belief that they had each found their soulmate. Our conversation also takes a personal turn as Ambre shares insights into her background, family life, and religious upbringing, providing a rich context to her part of this story. We navigate through my own experiences, recounting the excitement and connection I felt upon meeting Dick. I reveal the challenges and discoveries I faced, including the surprising revelations about his past engagements and financial behaviors that led to a stark realization of dishonesty and manipulation. Together, Ambre and I explore the intricate dynamics of our scarily similar relationships, from meeting significant family members to confronting the turmoil and uncertainties that emerged. It's a heartfelt and eye-opening discussion about love, trust, and the lessons we learn along the way. Thank you for tuning in, and I hope this episode resonates with you as much as it did with me. You can learn more about Ambre by checking out her socials below: Instagram: @AmbreFit YouTube: @ambrefit Twitter: @TheAmbreFit TikTok: @AmbreFit www.AmbreFit.com Stay tuned for PART 2 or this THREE part story next week! Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Ambre McKee Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this episode, Kylie opens up about what drove her to be part of The Dichotomy Diaries podcast as we reflect on our shared experiences with relationships. Join me as Kylie Brocato bravely shares her story about dating Dick, a man with a violent criminal history. What started with attraction and compliments soon turned into a nightmare of verbal abuse, manipulation, and attempts to disrupt her co-parenting relationship. Despite the chaos, Kylie’s strength shone through, and she ultimately ended the toxic relationship, leading to a much healthier co-parenting dynamic with her ex. We dive deep into the dynamics of Kylie's relationship with Dick, including his neglect of his own children while trying to claim hers, his financial instability and gambling, and his secret life as a sex worker for men! Kylie’s revelation about being deceived by Dick's false narratives highlights the importance of setting boundaries and recognizing red flags. We also discuss how Dick used location sharing as a control tactic, the financial strain he caused, and his outrageous public behavior. Join us for a heartfelt and insightful conversation that underscores the importance of resilience, boundaries, and self-awareness in relationships. Don't forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more episodes every week! 💖 Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda CLICK HERE FOR THE VIDEO RECORDING OF THIS EPISODE! WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Kylie Brocato Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this deep and insightful conversation, Rohanna and I explore Rohanna’s multifaceted life experiences, touching on her early life on Whidbey Island, her journey through homeschooling, and her early marriage. Rohanna also shares about her collaborative natural body care business with her mom in the Pacific Northwest, and the beauty of living near the orcas. The conversation shifts to more personal themes, delving into Rohanna’s past narcissistic relationship with you guessed it....Dick. The revelations of abuse begin to align with the healing power of storytelling as we both reflect on the importance of empathy, accountability, and reciprocity. We candidly discuss the dynamics of different relationships, from familial to romantic, highlighting the lessons learned about safety, trust, and maintaining one’s individuality. Throughout, Rohanna hopes her openness helps others feel less alone, emphasizing the strength found in shared stories and the support of true friendship- an amazing byproduct of Dick's treacherous ways. Please give Rohanna a follow and support her business: https://www.sweetsistersbodycare.com Business Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sweetsistersbodycare Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/wildonefit WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Rohanna Wildon Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this segment of the conversation, Joanna and Amanda delve into the intricate dynamics of Joanna's relationship with her ex-partner, Dick. They explore Dick's isolated lifestyle, his fixation on fitness and steroid use, as well as his troubling control over Joanna's diet and body image. Furthermore, they shed light on his neglectful behavior as a father to his daughter. The discussion also touches upon Dick's manipulative tactics, including his skillful redirection during arguments and exploitation of Joanna's talents and creativity. Joanna bravely shares her profound sense of entrapment and manipulation in the relationship, detailing the emotional and physical abuse she endured. She recounts harrowing experiences, including a violent incident where Dick attempted to suffocate her. Amidst the darkness, Joanna opens up about her journey to healing and the pivotal role therapy played in her recovery process. Follow Joanna and support her business ventures through the links below: Personal Instagram: @_joannahans Business Instagram: @livingbreadbakehouse TikTok: @joanna.hans Business Website: https://www.joannahans.com WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Joanna Hans Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this compelling episode, Amanda sits down with Joanna to delve into her personal journey with a former partner who, coincidentally, they both know. Joanna candidly shares the story of their meeting, the subtle early signs of manipulation she noticed, and the profound impact it had on her life. Both Amanda and Joanna hope that by sharing this story, it will provide solace to others and illuminate the realities of narcissistic abuse. They explore the characteristics of women often targeted by narcissists and the manipulative tactics they employ. From the outset, Joanna's father had reservations about Dick. Yet, Dick managed to maintain a convincing facade, impressing Joanna's family to some extent. As circumstances would have it, Joanna found herself becoming roommates with Dick, eventually leading to an "exclusive" relationship...or so she thought. The relationship seemed picture-perfect on social media, providing Joanna with a sense of security. However, this facade crumbled when she began receiving messages about Dick's inappropriate behavior. Joanna soon recognized that Dick had used his Mormon faith as yet another tool for manipulation. In addition to this, Joanna discovered some of Dick's unconventional side hustles, one of which even surprised Amanda. Much like Amanda, Joanna found herself trapped in a trauma bond with Dick, experiencing lies, abandonment, verbal abuse, and coercion firsthand. VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Please give Joanna a follow & support her business! Personal Instagram: @_joannahans Business Instagram: @livingbreadbakehouse TikTok: @joanna.hans Business Website: https://www.joannahans.com WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Joanna Hans Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries